Friday, November 30, 2018

πŸ™‚ I Finally See The Dawn Arrivin
Good day at work. Sprint Retrospective and Planning. Coordinated w/Tom on the proposal status and sent the hopefully final response. Jen/I had a drink and chat at Opa about 2019 plans, went to Barnes and Noble, returned to read and write.




I'm feeling a sense of opportunity in the month ahead, and I'm grateful that I'm conscious of and pay attention to my intuition.




It's not been a good week for movement. Again. Walking needs to STILL be more of a daily habit.




I'm rethinking my stance on taking the kids to Dodge Ridge. It's not right to use it as a punishment and bystanders get impacted too. I'm looking forward to saying we'll go (provided I get sign off on the time changes).




Accomplishments: Meditation WorkFocus Cleanup

Thursday, November 29, 2018

😐 The Autumn Leaves Have Got You Thinking

Went to Julianne farewell lunch. Good 1:1 with Ryan. Sprint ended reasonably well. Listened to Pollen book "How to Change Your Mind" (fascinating, hits a few points of interest). Never heard from damned Drone repair shop which is making me rethink the options.



I'm grateful that I have an open mind in many ways. Maybe not everything, and maybe not always.



Another day and another sense of disconnect between ideals/goals and reality for my focus and engagement. I'm anxious.



I'm looking forward to the team being onsite tomorrow.



Accomplishments: Meditation Cleanup

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

😐 I've Been Working On A Cocktail…

WFH after dropping kids in two shifts. Worked from the patio most of the day. Tested the carpet shampooer with great results. Made a burger for Tommy, Lauren worked Theater Tech until 10pm. Went to GOBM, found some awesome 'natural' blue and brown' free range eggs. They're so awesome it's hard to consider cracking them! Listened to podcasts while doing cleanup.



Focused on work most of the day, but dealing predominately with "in the moment" needs and not 'backlog' tasks. I need time on 'backlog' tasks.



I sent my "final final final response" to the support settlement to her. I'm hoping this is finally finally finally concluded. I'll know more late next week, hopefully.



Accomplishments: Meditation Mindfulness WorkFocus Parenting Cleanup

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

😐 Psych 1, Psych 2, What Do You Know?

WFH Day, maintained adequate engagement but could dive deeper and I'll do so tomorrow. Trimmed hair to #4, Met w/Tom to finalize response. Tommy had scouts, Lauren had TheaterTech, snagged a $90 carpet shampoo machine for $6 at Savers. Starting listening to "How to Change Your Mind" by Michael Pollan.



I'm grateful that there's seemingly an uptick in optimism within the population that want to press hard on climate change issues. Maybe a critical mass is forming.



Walking. Missing in my routine. Get it back into the daily habit.



I'm looking forward to a stop at Philz tomorrow and touching base w/Martin.



Accomplishments: Meditation Mindfulness Parenting Cleanup

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Monday, November 26, 2018

πŸ˜€ Don't You Feel Like Trying Something New

Went to RWC for staff and related meetings. Went to Smart 'n Final and Library w/Jen in the PM to get her setup for Libby App. Listened to and finished "The Subtle Art of Not Giving A Fuck". Loved it. I'll want to read it again. Watched Seinfeld in the background, random tracks, fun stuff.



Listening to 'the Subtle Art…' reminded me of how lucky I have been to have travelled, and gained some exposure to other cultures. It's a gift to be open to the idea that maybe your country and politics are not the end-all-be-all of the world.



I'm on a bit of a 'bender' as to PM indulgences in eggnog and rum. I'm enjoying the perfect blend of Three Sheets 'n Eggnog. But it's not gonna help my weight loss. So I have to not complain in the morning.



I'm looking forward to starting the "How to Change Your Mind" audiobook.



Accomplishments: Meditation WorkFocus Cleanup

Sunday, November 25, 2018

πŸ™‚ ...You Are Ever Happy There
Dropped kids at 9am to go get their tree w/their Mom. Barefoot Coffee, JEN and NYT. Savers (kids clothes, lead-crystal vase). Roomba arrived, setup and used. Love having one again, thank you black Friday). Watched "Babes In Toyland". (1934). I love that this was a favorite and became a relatively annual routine at 8yr old.




I was reading about China's political and economical changes in the NYT today. I'm grateful to live with the freedom and relative luxuries we have, but I also wonder what I'd think and be grateful for were I born and raised in that other environment.




I'm going to go into RWC tomorrow, and continue to build out a higher exception of my onsite presence.




I hope to hear from my attorney tomorrow and setup a next-step meeting for tomorrow PM.




Accomplishments: Meditation Mindfulness Cleanup Reading

Saturday, November 24, 2018

πŸ˜€ The Machine Of A Dream

SF Auto Show. In/Out Burgers en route home (Lauren almost finished 4x4!). Hung the LED lights on the house and sure, they're hodge/podge facing up/down but they're up, and that's enough for me. Enjoyed the Glendrnach 12 yr old from Costco with some leftover chowder. Yum!



I enjoy gong into SF, I don't do it enough. There's so much going on and I feel at home there. I miss working there. But it's shocking to see the skyline having changed in the past 10 years as dramatically as it has. It makes me feel old.



I'm going to spend tomorrow trying to wrap up a handful of to-do tasks, but I'm really looking forward to starting the day w/coffee and the NYT.



Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Parenting Cleanup Reading

Friday, November 23, 2018

πŸ˜€ If The Sun Refused To Shine

"Thanks Given" : The day after Thanksgiving. Lauren/Tommy, Lindsey, Ryan, Mom, Cynthia, Jen & I. Ham, Clam Chowder, Mashed Potatoes, Cauliflower, and much more. Jen/I worked together yesterday and this AM to get it all in place. My mom gave me the 'mouse' Netsuke, which I'm very happy to have. It was a simple, pleasant day.



It's a good feeling to be reaching out to and including extend family into our lives and events.



I want to continue to work on balancing the time spend 1:1, 2:1, and solo with the kids.



Tomorrow we'll be hitting the 2018 Auto Show at Moscone, then hanging light at Matson.



Accomplishments: Mindfulness Parenting Cleanup

Thursday, November 22, 2018

☹️ Mr. Blue Sky, Please Tell Us Why

I stayed up way too late, writing, on the couch, in a haphazard position, resulting in back spasms that had me ready to stab the lower left knot in my back with an ice pick. I didn't sleep for more than 1-2hrs. I dropped the kids at Pano and returned to Matson. We went on a walk around the neighborhood, I spent more time resting while Jen cooked in advance of tomorrow, and I made Clam Chowder in the evening. I also reached a new level of recognition regarding the dysfunction of this past 5 years which I may write about elsewhere, another time.



I had a really good conversation w/Lauren in the morning. We laughed and I shared a few insights and supported her having her own feelings about everything including me and her mom and brother, and it felt like a very positive talk. I'm hoping they recognize my sincere interest in helping them through the next few years.



I ended up in great pain all night because I didn't respond to the initial pain, I stayed in a destructive position and I could have prevented this by being more attentive to my body's signals and my knowledge that this can come on easier than I might expect.



Tomorrow is our "Thanks Given" gathering. It's supposed to rain so the kids might be available earlier than expected. Others arrive around 2pm. I'll get my mom at 1pm. We'll hang out and eat and talk and hopefully have a wonderful time.



Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Cleanup Reading

Wednesday, November 21, 2018

πŸ™‚ Nothin Lasts Forever, Even Cold November Rain

I got a chance to talk to my lawyer. Still more 'bartering' under way but I'm not budging further. And I'm pissed off more than ever before at the audacity of entitlement and expectations. I can't wait to be done with this, and with her bullshit. On a positive note the kids came back and hung out. Tommy's been spending more time w/Laura on FaceTime and I am wrestling w/how to mange the appropriate boundaries.




I'm glad I'm seeing more and more of the absurdity of the divorce and how it's played out. If I could go back in time I'd change so much of how this is going but I can only look at this as a really costly learning experience.




I want to get the kids more engaged when they're here and will be setting some boundaries around screen time. Or enforcing them more.




Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Whatever. Not a big deal to me, really, but it'll be a low key day and the day after will be one spent with friends and family.




Accomplishments: Meditation Mindfulness WorkFocus Cleanup Reading

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

πŸ™‚ Skipping Over The Ocean Like A Stone

Day trip to Carmel to let Tommy dive with Nick Ta and friends. It was a beautiful day. Lauren/I had a nice breakfast and went to Pacific Grove to see the migrating butterflies. We ventured out to the far point and found fun places to return to. She wants to bring bikes down. Love that idea. Had excellent lunch at American Burgers on Lighthouse Ave down from Bamboo Reef. Returned to Matson, returned them to Pano, got a text from Attorney about talking tomorrow which has me wondering "WTF now"… we'll see how that goes.



I got frustrated w/the kids over the 'lets go lets go' sense of pressure and forgetting a few things due to that. It's really my responsibility, not theirs, to push back and ensure I have what I need. So it's not fair to be curt with them about it. It's learned behavior that needs to be reshaped.



I'm really glad they'll be back tomorrow.



Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Cleanup Reading

Monday, November 19, 2018

πŸ™‚ It's A Long Way Down The Holiday Road
The kids are off this week. It was nice to not have to rush out to school. I meditated, showered/shaved, and took them to Pano, only to decide Tommy would come w/me to work, which he did. It worked great. He worked on his video while I worked on work. Dropped him, they returned at 6.30 and we'll be going to Carmel tomorrow am. Had a fun "spur of the moment" time running to GOBM w/Lauren to snag some Macaroons. Jen's feeling better. Watched "The Great Outdoors" and "Vacation".




I'm glad I went into RWC today. I think it's a valuable use of time to be there a few times a week. It's so good to have face-face time.




I'm hoping to make the most of tomorrow in Carmel with Tommy and Lauren.




It'll be nice to relax tomorrow night, get some food for Thanks-given, and head into the holiday.




Accomplishments: Meditation WorkFocus Mindfulness Parenting

Sunday, November 18, 2018

πŸ™‚ In A Most Delightful Way
Added some stretching routines into my morning w/Jen. A low key day with the Kids at Matson. Lauren made crepes and Tommy shot some footage for his next diving video effort. His editing is really improving dramatically. We saw "Instant Family" and it was a really fun sweet film. Jen's come down with something and it might be what I had. Grilled "Hot Links" on the BBQ per Tommy's request. Hung out watching YouTube and nature and other assorted clips and stuff.



I'm so glad I've got these two wonderful kids and this amazing relationship. I feel like the value of every day is becoming more apparent as I and they age and I see more of their individual characters surface.



I want to 'Stabilize' my effort to establish daily routines. So far, my mornings now include stretching or Yoga, Meditation, managing kids getting to school. Days are about being successful in my work. Evenings end with de-tech at 9.30, full house pickup/cleanup, then writing or reading. That's enough for now. I need to focus for a while on just getting this down and ingrained.



I'm looking forward to starting to return to Redwood City Monday, Wednesday and Friday's. It's way overdue. I need to reconnect in person with my peers.



Accomplishments: Mindfulness Parenting

Saturday, November 17, 2018

☹️ I’m Always Hoping That You'll End This Reign

Wonderful start by sleeping in, waking to a clean kitchen, making Verve coffee. Happy happy happy… then.... back-pain. Excruciating. Back/groin spasms. 10-on-a-scale-of-10-level pain. Guiame-Barre level bad. Bed-bound-on-my-back bad, groaning-in-agony bad. Fortunately, it lightened up in the later evening. Now it seems to have subsided but I'm not sure what started it and I'm nervous about it resurfacing.



I watched " Living in the Future's Past" with Jen. I loved it. It reinforced my own efforts to reduce, reuse and recycle. To have and use less. And to try to foster dialogue over disagreement.



I'm going to start a daily stretch routine each morning and prioritize a 1mike walk daily. This pain's not worth being lazy.



I look forward to following through w/the stretching goal. And not experiencing this sort of pain again for a few years, at the lest.



Accomplishments: Mindfulness

Friday, November 16, 2018

😐 The Time Has Come To Say Fair's Fair

Event(s): Told team to WFH due to Air Quality issues. 181. Bad. Spent the majority of the day dealing w/work demands while fasting so my body would get over whatever stomach flu or food poising I acquired. It was not pretty. Finally regained my baselines composure around 4pm. Turned off TV as a mindfulness exercise because it was not a productive use of my time.



Gratitude: I'm glad I have not fallen victim to a disaster like the fires in Butte this week. I can't imagine losing my home, job, and possessions let alone a life. It's too easy to be removed from that, but there's people that have died in this fire and if you just imagine for a moment what finding yourself suddenly facing such a calamity would be like, consumed in smoke and terror, it's just unimaginable. I hope I never find myself in such a position and I have such empathy for the poor people that have and do.



Goal: Donate to Red Cross, and setup something recurring, too.



Anticipation: Sleeping in! ;-)



Accomplishments: WorkFocus Mindfulness

Thursday, November 15, 2018

☹️ Should Have Taken Warning

Event(s): Smoke still clings to the valley from the Butte fires (title) and I'm feeling like shit tonight. Dropped each kid individually, and I need to buffer more time for delays. Focused heavily on workday engagement and presence but 1/2 of the way through I started to feel sick and still do. I'm not sure if it's food poisoning or smoke inhalation or the stomach flu… I just know I don't want to throw up. I hate throwing up.



Gratitude: Lying sick on the bed made me reflect on the hospitalization and all that time spent bedridden. It was a nightmare but I'm grateful for having had that, as it gives me an underlying sense of resolve and determination when a simple situation like this arises. But I'm still miserable.



Goal: Rest and recover.



Anticipation: feeling better, soon, because I have little/no drive to write at this time.



Accomplishments: Meditation WorkFocus Writing

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

😐 This Is The Sound Of My Soul

Event(s): Kids to School (cut close for Lauren), WFH, Lunch with Brian, Patio space set up and used for work PM, Lauren dropped and we went to get Tommy from Wrestling practice at Leigh. Went to Target to get a gift for Lauren's friend's party (short notice = annoyed).



Gratitude: My friends. They are few, far apart, and also seldom seen….but they are of substantial value to me.



Goal: Spend less time alone. Make "Home" the place friends gathering or we return to, and not the dominant place wherein most of your time is spent in relative isolation.



Anticipation: The result of making more of an effort to spend time with family and friends.



Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Parenting Reading

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

😐 Northern Lights

Event(s): WFH, spur-of-the-moment lunch w/Jess (who's at Roku starting this week). Stumbled across the new "Death Cab For Cutie" release and I'm really enjoying it. Added twitter feed to this site… it's a great fit as far as parallel and complementary content go.



Gratitude: The insight to question things, and to consider making changes to personal vices in an effort to simply improve and evolve.



Goal: Evolve.



Anticipation: Coffee with Brian (B.O.B.)



Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Parenting Reading Writing

Monday, November 12, 2018

😐 Seasons Change With The Scenery

Event(s): WFH, follow up call w/devs walking through code, general busywork, Savers lunch run (50%) for more kids clothes (including $5 pair of the same excellent condition Converse All-Star I just paid $50 for Saturday night. Oh well). Jen's mentioned concerns about possible layoffs at work, which has me rather nervous. Low key evening spent finishing the note taking from Vicki transcript, now just need to weave the final narrative and post/share w/them and David. May try for tonight, but already ramping down so…



Gratitude: Having the means to pay retail but the foresight to not, as much as possible.



Goal: A deep solid all-through-the-night sleep.



Anticipation: A second try to ensure I get both a workout and a good walk in tomorrow am.



Accomplishments: Mindfulness Writing

Burn Out or Fade Away?

I was ruminating while listening to Amy Winehouse last night. I found myself wondering that, had she'd lived to 80, would she have left a more lasting impression? Would her life have necessarily been a better and more healthy one? More productive or influential? Or might she have faded into obscurity as others have before her? Would her addictions have resolved, or might her latter years have ended in gradually debilitating physical conditions and suffering, dragged out for far longer than reasonable or bearable? Who defines the 'quality' of one's life? I believe only one person really can, in each instance. So, is there ever really a 'right time' to die and if so, based on what?

Sunday, November 11, 2018

And Then There Were Three

I wanted to get this new habit fully adopted before making any public declaration. I thought one month would suffice. It took longer, I've refined my approach a few times and may continue to do so for, well, as long as I keep doing this. For now, I believe I have the routine down. Enough to unveil this new branch of my writing efforts. I don't expect it to be anything of substantial interest to others. The intention is really for me to set a positive journaling habit, to reflect daily on what I'm grateful for, what I'm striving to achieve, and what I am looking forward to.
πŸ™‚ What A Good Wife You Would Be
Event(s): Great Bear and Sweet Peas w/Lauren. Low key day at home. Put the patio shields up. Jen cooked a slew of stuff up. Did outer household task. Lots of catching up. Kicked off renewed KETO effort. Watched Guardian's of the Galaxy 2, too. (🎢 Brandy, you're a fine girl...)



Gratitude: Jennifer. She's so giving, so easy going, so generous. It's wonderful how easy we get on.



Goal: Get a walk in tomorrow and stay on KETO path.



Anticipation: A good morning meditation and maybe a walk too.



Accomplishments: Mindfulness Reading Writing

Saturday, November 10, 2018

πŸ™‚ One Day More
Event(s): Tommy camping with scouts – forgot epipen. I drove him to Castle Rock. Glad I did because the valley's smoke-filled from Butte county fires but the air and conditions on the mountain were far better than the valley. I'm hoping he had a good time and a chance to get some bonding time with friends and nature. Lauren worked Super Saturday until 4pm, we went to the Great Mall, bought her some converse shoes, we had dinner at Black Angus in Milpitas and watched Les Mis. Jen went to hang with Steve and Diana and Matat.



Gratitude: I felt like I handled the last min need to take Tommy to CastleRock well. His attitude can be so aggravating but I think it's about impulse over intent and he was grateful for the help getting him up there.



Goal: I want to spend tomorrow kicking off a focused return to eating with a goal of getting to 180's by EOY. It can be done if I want it badly enough to make it my priority.



Anticipation: Time tomorrow working through some backlogged tasks related to blogging.



Accomplishments: Walking Mindfulness Parenting Writing

Friday, November 09, 2018

😐 A Thousand Beautiful Things

Event(s): Dinner gathering at Marioni's w/Jen and kids was fun, especially singing Puff The Magic Dragon w/Lauren.




Gratitude: The observation this am of a one-legged man in a wheelchair outside the convalescent hospital across from Union Middle School made me reflect on having been briefly hospitalized and how grateful I am for the health I have today.




Goal: Exit the weekend feeling like I've maintained the order that gives me solace.




Anticipation: Lauren/Dad night tomorrow!




Accomplishments: Mindfulness Parenting Writing

Smoldering Acceptance


These posts about my divorce are coming to a gradual close. Maybe I’ll write down the road about the lessons, the insight, or the introspections that might come to me in time, but the venting and vetting, the anger and angst, are on their way out. I want to write about my present and my future, and other more inspirational topics, ones that fuel my passions and excitement, and not the flames of my resentment.

After receiving the proposal response and an email of justifications that followed last night, I sat stunned and speechless. The entire night, actually, during which I repeatedly awoke to thoughts already in progress, as my mind chewed and churned through the situation, the scenarios, the options and the outcomes.

Thursday, November 08, 2018

πŸ™‚ Higher Ground
Event(s): 2nd due diligence date, Jen back, Kids with us.



Gratitude: I'm proud of what I've accomplished at work over 7+ years. The due diligence effort gave me time to reflect.



Goal: Maintain daily meditation and daily rituals – they're helping immensely.



Anticipation: Hoping to hear good feedback about the team/systems from this week's efforts.



Accomplishments: Meditation WorkFocus Mindfulness Parenting

Wednesday, November 07, 2018

πŸ™‚ Night And Day
Event(s): Day 1 of due diligence meetings, Kidless/Jenless evening watching Katherine McPhee in concert (phenomenal performance).



Gratitude: My attachment to music, as triggers and inspiration.



Goal: Exit tomorrow PM from RWC confident about my contributions to the process.



Anticipation: Jen's return, stories, and kids with me.



Accomplishments: Meditation WorkFocus Walking Mindfulness

Tuesday, November 06, 2018

πŸ™‚ Slow Ride. Take it Easy.
Taking an alternate route at 6.45am with Lauren worked great. But at 7.45am, not so much. Spent 20+ min trying to get Tommy to school. Argh. Lesson learned. Guys came over for Geek night.



Mediation was awesome, a really good 'track' on calm app about integrating mindfulness in your daily habits, and how REALLY HARD it is to not 'run with your thoughts'. Work was better, I got more traction on due diligence tasks. Tomorrow is day one of two onsite deep dives, and I'm hoping it goes well, but I'm reserving any optimism in order to be pragmatic instead. Same way I'm approaching today's midterm elections. And the latest back/forth re. the support agreement discussions.



I want to continue to 'let go' of 80% of the 'noise' in my daily routines and life. Being late for school, missing an email, getting it perfect for a tech discussion, they're all over-played and the end game relies not on each play, but on the overall sustained effort through the fails.



I am looking forward to tomorrow evening, having a 'catch your breath' evening before returning to more due diligence and having a full house again w/Jen and the kids all back Thursday night.



Accomplishments: Meditation WorkFocus Mindfulness

Monday, November 05, 2018

So Close, And Yet So Far

I got her response to my final proposal. It’s not being accepted, at least not the tax-related concessions for 2018. Thus, the house is going to need to be sold because of her shortsighted stance. I’ll make the best of it for myself and the kids. I'll put the proceeds towards getting a place near their current home and school, while they finish attending, keeping them near their friends too. She’s a fucking idiot. Clueless, entitled, ignorant and self-obsessed. She fails to comprehend or accept her own role as an adult and a parent, and the need to sacrifice for her kids, and what losing the house will result in for her. I’m continuously stunned. What’s worst is that I'm still continuously stunned. How many fucking times do I have to hit my head against this wall before I realize it's a fucking wall, and nothing will change that. Ever.
☹️ I’m Going Slightly Mad

Got the 'response' to my final proposal. I'll reserve commentary for another time. But what stuns me the most is that I continue to be stunned at all. This was an overall shitty day. I have felt off all day for various reasons. I guess not every day can be great, but I felt like I was in a state of suspension all day. Little or no traction on so many tasks.



Meditation helps but it's not enough. I will resume my 'walking' efforts tomorrow by taking a stroll to Starbucks like I was before. I'll listen to some inspirational podcasts and try and put a full court press effort into the morning's due diligence.



I am looking forward to feeling the sense of accomplishment that comes from a productive day.



Accomplishments: Meditation Parenting Reading



I listed to Queen all day. Oddly, it made me sadder, because I connect the music to a time long gone, and it makes me aware of my own limited time left. It's always been fun before, but with the mood I'm in, it just sorta accentuated a sense of futility. Who knows, maybe anything would.

Sunday, November 04, 2018

πŸ™‚ One Particular Harbor
Jen left for Disneyland today, returns Thursday. Kids are with me after 8am (early, for free dive trip).



Tommy has been aching to go snorkeling/free diving and I've not taken him for several weeks for various reasons, from conflicting schedules to just wanting a break from that drive/routine. But I'd told him we could go this weekend and we did, and we met Nick at a friend of his at Lovers Point where they went out and spent about 1hr+. We had lunch w/Nick afterward at Munros Cafe, great hole-in-the-wall burger spot. Tommy's made good impressions and connections w/the crew at Bamboo Reef and they're all great people and great examples for him to model. I'm going to sign up Lauren/I for lessons w/Rebecca and Tommy is likely to get certified by Nick as a part of his own training as a teacher. Pretty cool. The rest of the evening was low key with a brief mountain drive in the Mercedes.



I'm repeating my need to focus from last night – returning to my desired weight would likely be one of the most positive changes I can make for myself right now. There are only a few key areas I need aggressive conscious focus on and that is at the top.



I am looking forward to spending tomorrow 100% deep dive focused on the work deliverables.




Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Parenting

Saturday, November 03, 2018

πŸ™‚ Memories Are Made Of This
We got Philz coffee this am, and picked up Jen's rental for LA trip from LG Hertz. Met some nice men at Hertz including a guy who'd shared a story of being hit in his car by a drumk driver who ran a read light and He walked away from it unharmed. "Life is good", he said. We had breakfast at Andale, Ran some errands, went to another open house in the Villages (townhomes off Meridian in Almaden Valley), watched "Won't you be my neighbor" and "the Brain" (PBS)…. And it's fascinating. Memories include myths. Hmmmmmmmm....



I want to focus on weight loss. I've stalled and I'm not where I want to be. And it's now reaching a point of absurdity because I'm not staying conscious about my choices and drifting off task daily. I need to reign that in.



I am looking forward to a day with the kids tomorrow, taking photos, and enjoying the day without stressing about the return trip from Monterey.




Accomplishments: Walking Mindfulness

Friday, November 02, 2018

πŸ™‚ Peaceful Easy Feeling
Tommy's last JV Football game. Team Lunch at Care2. Kids w/their Mom.



Work was good. Lunch was great, I'm glad we're continuing to gather weekly. Tommy's game was good. He had a great tackle in the 1st quarter, but an injury in Q3. He's ok. Might have a tooth chip or crack…TBD. I got burgers from Happy Hound, to go, and Jen/I spent a stretch of time just enjoying the patio and a glass of wine and talking. I really adore her, she's so awesome. We watched a set of '80's history shows.



I want to continue to encourage a stronger connection within the work community. I need to lobby for quarterly feedback tasks or the like.



I am looking forward to tomorrow, a day with few plans or demands.



Accomplishments: WorkFocus Mindfulness

Thursday, November 01, 2018

😐 Jest In Time

Dropped Lauren at Leigh after a quick drop of her Halloween candy. Hung at Starbucks, then home. Sprint ends today so managed that, and dropped off ballots, and got a much needed oil change too.




My "Jest In Pun" book arrived, and it's in great condition. I'm really happy to have it. The conference call this morning with possible investors went well. And I got to watch some geeky content while relaxing tonight (Nova, The Brain).




I want to be more deeply involved in the tech stack at work. My need to be spread across the whole arena make it hard to stay as close as I'd like to but I need to get at least a bit deeper into some of the functional areas that I might not otherwise always have the answers around.




I am looking forward to having a couple of days of relative 'downtime' but I miss my kids a great deal when they're not with me.

Bound And Gagged

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I have been fortunate enough to find or stumble across a few physical items over the course of the past few years that trigger significant memories for me. There's the “1000 Words is worth a Picture” poster I 'reclaimed' a few years back, the “desktop valet” that I came across at a thrift store last year, and immediately grabbed. I passed up 'buying back’ a 70’s GE digital clock radio I found in Morgan Hill earlier this year and still regret having done so. I have selectively sought out a small collection of vintage audio media, including a couple of specific LPs, an eight-track and a reel-to-reel that all hold significant meaning. I also have a copy of Stuart Little, one of my childhood favorites. So as I was browsing an antique store in Niles Canyon recently and stumbled across something that triggered fond memories of a book I had in my youth, I decided it was significant enough to seek it out and obtain.