I stayed up way too late, writing, on the couch, in a haphazard position, resulting in back spasms that had me ready to stab the lower left knot in my back with an ice pick. I didn't sleep for more than 1-2hrs. I dropped the kids at Pano and returned to Matson. We went on a walk around the neighborhood, I spent more time resting while Jen cooked in advance of tomorrow, and I made Clam Chowder in the evening. I also reached a new level of recognition regarding the dysfunction of this past 5 years which I may write about elsewhere, another time.
I had a really good conversation w/Lauren in the morning. We laughed and I shared a few insights and supported her having her own feelings about everything including me and her mom and brother, and it felt like a very positive talk. I'm hoping they recognize my sincere interest in helping them through the next few years.
I ended up in great pain all night because I didn't respond to the initial pain, I stayed in a destructive position and I could have prevented this by being more attentive to my body's signals and my knowledge that this can come on easier than I might expect.
Tomorrow is our "Thanks Given" gathering. It's supposed to rain so the kids might be available earlier than expected. Others arrive around 2pm. I'll get my mom at 1pm. We'll hang out and eat and talk and hopefully have a wonderful time.
Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Cleanup Reading
I had a really good conversation w/Lauren in the morning. We laughed and I shared a few insights and supported her having her own feelings about everything including me and her mom and brother, and it felt like a very positive talk. I'm hoping they recognize my sincere interest in helping them through the next few years.
I ended up in great pain all night because I didn't respond to the initial pain, I stayed in a destructive position and I could have prevented this by being more attentive to my body's signals and my knowledge that this can come on easier than I might expect.
Tomorrow is our "Thanks Given" gathering. It's supposed to rain so the kids might be available earlier than expected. Others arrive around 2pm. I'll get my mom at 1pm. We'll hang out and eat and talk and hopefully have a wonderful time.
Accomplishments: Meditation Walking Mindfulness Cleanup Reading