That cylindrical gauze from my nose (right of index finger) was the bane of my existence.
It's hard some times to capture all the nuances of a day. I was so anxious about the stitches removal this morning that I didn't sleep well. By the time it came time to get up I'd sort of just resolved myself to riding out whatever the morning might bring. The thought of another round of injections was upsetting but I figured that it was likely a necessity given the amount of stitches and the sensitivity of my nose, still. Once there I found Tim already there, one of the folks I got to know last week. The guy that works on ML/AI at FB. We talked and others joined and the social hour began. One particular woman, a teacher at West Valley, floored me when she said she was 96. I was stunned. She looked great and seemed vibrant and articulate and pleasant. That was inspirational. The nurse took me back, removed the bandages with a modest amount of pain, a bit quicker than I'd expected. As I watched them coming off I was so worried the graft would come with it. It didn't. She said things looked ok and then the doctor came in and confirmed things were going along as well as he would hope. I still have to take care of the graft with daily gauze and tape, minimal lifting, and very deliberate management of any sneezing or other nose-related trauma. Oh and sleeping on my back. Ugh. The best part was that the sutures are the disolving/absorbing ones. Why did I think I was getting them removed? I ran into Rick and Margie (?) on the way out and talked w/them for a bit. Such pleasant people. I do hope to run into them again in LG at Happy Hound or downtown. I was well focused at work, had a couple of good meetings and was well engaged for some important discussions. I continue to have anxiety about the long term stability of the company but after 1+ years of this, I'm just doing my best to do my best and not be the reason for any failures. It's the one thing I can fully control. Jen and I did cards w/the usual suspects which was fun. I ran Lauren to Pano to get some things she needed and tomorrow we will return school books and also go get her mom from Radiation and take her for "end of school year yogurt' outing before returning here to SRC. Tommy's going to Reno w/Extra Hour tomorrow evening. He's done well getting his grades managed and is hopefully going to get the BYU stuff done too. Jen and I need some solo time, all the chaos and uncertainty are draining. I know my own obsessions, frustrations and anxieties don't help so it's a balancing act for both of us.