Sunday am, after another really difficult night w/the stitches and bandages, I caved and contacted the doctor's office about it. They were understanding and assured me the pain was nerves healing. And the gauze in the nose was needed too. This whole thing has been a constant irritant and a bigger undertaking than I expected. I wonder too if that's 'real' or simply the fact that my threshold was exceeded and my tolerance is minimal. The Tylenol with codeine helped last night. Today was the first day I felt 'stable' as far as the pain and sensations go. At least until earlier tonight when I coughed and felt the sharp pain and sensation of a stitch being pulled. It was excruciating, which is a word Iv'e used a lot this week. Tommy's been focused on catching up on school and also been reasonably pleasant. It's been a welcome change and I'm grateful. Lauren worked all day. We all three went to see their mom this morning and I could tell it meant a lot to her that Tommy was there. We dropped Lauren and returned to Matson Jen made 'breakfast lasagna' which was delicious. Another favorite. Tommy and I ran a happy hound hotdog and shake to Lauren on her lunch break. I watched more of the "1971' documentary and found the Angelia Davis "the revolution will not be televised" episode just incredible. And upsetting too. 50 years later and we're still dealing with this carp. Tommy and I went to get Lauren, left flowers at Madronia for TP on Linda's behalf, drove up to skyline and back to Bear Creek. Then we got a call from Linda about some issues with her left foot and left hand. We went and checked in, she seems ok and stable. We collaborated with Kathy D on the concerns so they could be escalated including determine that some bruising lies most likely in the combination of blood thinners and her left-leaning tendencies in the wheelchair. I emphasized later w/the kids about the path ahead being a challenging and uncertain one. They're going to be dealing with some serious shit and I want them to be aware of it going in. I'm worn down and yet I'm still trying to find balance in chaos.