Woke up, naturally, at around 6am, and felt ready to get up. So I did. Fed the dogs, and ended up thinking that bed sounded good, still. So I returned. I setup the bedroom HomePod mini to play the "gratitude" video's audio at around 6.30am. We'll see how it goes. Having spent almost 40 years lamenting the absence of a daily advisory period, setting a daily audio awakening with this sort of reminder seems like a no-brainer. Walked the dog, enjoyed the am with Jen, got engaged in work, well, again… then the watch and phone came alive with inquiries from Linda about the day's schedule. She's exhibiting more issues like this that are alarming. The whole thing is alarming. And I'm still struggling with the very real probability that she will die this year. It's just so hard to comprehend. I'm glad I made the effort today to take her to yogurt with Lauren after her radiation treatment, as Linda has done annually for them at the end of each school year. I also went to Pano earlier today to get things situation for Barbara's stay. I expected and asked for Tommy's help. He made the mess, not me. No dice, no help, just smarts comments. I'm starting to thing the best thing I can do for both of us is stop trying to change things and don't explode so easily. I want him to learn by example, and my short fuse and impatience with what I consider extreme and unacceptable behavior don't show the 'high road' I would prefer I take and strive to, too. I realized today, too, that as much has I appreciate that Linda and I can have some closure it's not like we would suddenly reconnect or even 'hang out' as friends, much. Parents yes, friends, no. I'm starting to actully what friendships I'll have left after this all plays out. It's removing me in many ways from routine, which isn't interesting for me any more, either. I don't want to end up a cantankerous old coot. I took Lauren to Tilly's for clothes, got her what she wanted without question and only a modest amount of input when asked. Closed the night w/Jen and Lauren on the patio. Loved it. Talked about life, talked about bucket lists, talked about connections, and just plain talked. Devices and distractions literally consume time you will never reclaim so why not make the most of it.