Great Minds Think Alike (but you already know that)

 … sight unseen and still gets 3 stars

The two passages in the daily <insert philosophy> books this morning continued to follow and echo my own aspirations to be consious of models, examples, and the drain of our limited "battery life". What we put our time into; people places, things, beliefs, agendas, intentions should all be towards an outcome of rewarding efforts, contributions or education and growth. Yet with all that being said it remains a constant challenge to stay focused on and apply consious attention on. Today's conflict with Tommy is a prime example. I had the intention of not letting inconsequential situations cause me to suffer yet by engaging and being offended by his dismissive responses, tensions flared. As much as I tried not to "get in the ring," his defense is so aggressive and unyielding that it's always a struggle to be heard and for him to consider that he might be part of the problem. He has trust issues and ODD. Jen made a good point in the discussions regarding the owner­ship of preventing communication issues belonging to him. He does not communicate, he flat out refuses. He acts as if, at 22, his wanting to go to medical school warrants our allowing him to live without making any contributions to the household whatsoever, not financially offsetting his impact on our cost of living, not taking on any role to clean and maintain the bathroom, garage, dishes, not owning responsibility for any labor such as taking in and out the garbage or raking leaves. Refusing to even lock the doors, who does that? We made it clear that we have and would allow him to live with us until the school semester ends and then he has to move out. He insists he cannot do that, yet of course he can. He can work, pay rent, and get grants or loans for school. If I felt the dynamic would be healthy and cooperative, if the bathroom would be maintained and he's room not smell of BO and sweat, if he would have respect for me... well there lies the deal breaker. And heartbreaker too. Because I do want a relationship with him. But there is none without trust. without trust, there is no sincerity, no honesty, no consideration, no love. It's a concession and a compromise for both. I don't want that, and I do not see it as a path that leads to any improvement. The door has to be wide open, or closed. Nothing gets in or out when the chain is on.

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