The "Louie Schwartzberg and Jack Kornfeld" online event this morning was terrific. I started to listen while starting to do other things habitually, but once the introductions were done. The conversation began, and I realized that something important was being said, and my attention was divided fragmented, and I needed to decide what mattered most, I ceased all parallel activity, sat down, and listened. What moved me to do so was hearing them making multiple references and using very similar language and even one particular physical reference to the energy of a dead tree burning, to bring my focal need to the forefront. It was a short event, only I hour, but I was inspiring, validating, encouraging and motivating. If broyght me to a realization that I need to spend a bit more time with before writing about much further, as it requires a relatively bold move on my part. I met with Chuck Hutchcraft in Saratoga to help ensure he had all he would need to be successful during the month he's spending at Jikoji. I enjoyed talking to him and have a feeling we will reconnect again, perhaps even align some of our respective goals. Jen and I took Ruben sandwiches to my mom to visit at dinner time. She is still exhausted but has already started to show improvement. The evening back at home was spent addressing some further tasks relating to trying to control something simply because I can, because I believe I have good ideas that will make them something better, and as I did these things I was reminded again about what I know I need to do to move forward. It's not what I was doing. That's all distraction, identity and perhaps subconscious avoidance getting on my way. It's on me to take the uncomfortable and awkward steps to shift these patterns. I'll continue working on that tomorrow.
