Yet another day's ending. #22,814, to be exact. But hey who's counting? Counting up, that's easy, counting down, not so much. That does raise that same question I pose routinely – if you had access to a countdown don't you imagine you'd go through each day more conscious of the simple pleasures, personal connections, moments of joy? Make perhaps more self fulfilling choices? Complete tasks you want to have done prior? God knows I have plenty of things I "could" lament, bemoan, decry, and stew on, but… why? What's it change? And what energy am I putting out? God also knows how many of my past actions and interactions have likely set negativity into action in ways I wish I could go back and revert, but that's not seemingly an option beyond how I apply that to the present. But then again I don't believe in "God" so what the hell am I talking about, anyway? Moving along… This morning's coffee was quite good but the prior day's was excellent. Each was uniquely its own complex flavor. I captured the details and outcome, then ran another batch of beans through the roasting process in an attempt to get closer to that sweet spot. I'll know more in the morning. I met Frank at the Purple Onion to review his initial agenda for the "mental fitness" seminar in January. He's got a clear idea (and 54 years of experience) of how to approach it, to the point I question my own role. Still, the opportunity is a good one for my interest in finding opportunities to facilitate the sort of insight that drove me to pursue the EOL training. Specifically the way facing mortality, even through mundane documentation and advanced preparation, serves a gateway to a richer existence between then and now. It was interesting to have a brief dialog with my mom tonight, one in which I passed along a message from my cousin about my mom's cousin Bob passing away. She made a comment about having issues with how he treated his brother in his youth. I argued her point and referenced all the variables that came to mind about how individual perceptions and intentions are vastly different across all sorts of environmental conditions. It seemed to have landed flat, but I felt compelled to point out what's becoming more obvious for me. I'm either onto something or just on something. ;-)
Accomplishments: It rained and will be for a few days. I cleaned gutters in advance and pulled in outdoor cushions to dry. I took care of a need to renew the Jikoji domain and found that the system it's in is charging for services not in use. I want to move them off and onto Google for domain hosting to consolidate but like so many other things, I want to do it carefully. I received and put up Tommy's closet light, and need to setup the guest room's tomorrow or Wednesday at the latest.
Gratitude: I'm grateful that Tommy's continuing to be more engaged and in dialogs with me. It feels healthy and genuine, as does my rapport with Lauren. It feels good to experience what resonates as a healthy transition. This road might get bumpy but I'm starting to have more faith that we won't go off the rails as long as we can manage to communicate well, in both directions.
