Saturday, August 19, 2023


On more than one prior occasion I have referenced just how much can and does happen in a day. My God, the intricacies that occur within.just an hour let alone 24 or in this case, 72 or more. It's amazing how docile and deep one day can be with little or no awareness paid to other than the baseline fundamental thoughts of core necessities, to another day of all-in engagement and full presence in a given activity or focused thought. There are days… there are days that are full and densely packed with experience, the last few days being good examples of both. There was the 3 vehicle's in one day "flat tire, flat tire, won't start" scenario Thursday with evening drama and efforts to approach with compassion and insight. It worked well but was a challenge for all three of us as a family having partial insights to only a fraction of the greater truth. Poetic, right?  Friday Jen was sleeping in after feeding the dogs and I had a pressing need for some solo time. I walked to Starbucks, got coffee and settled into a comfy chair after a brief moment at a table amongst tables soon to be occupied for about 23 minutes by middle-schooler's en route to UMS. It was a proactive survival move. I met and briefly chatted with a 'regular' whose name escapes me. I told them about exitidy and felt confident doing so. I lingered and worked on the Jikoji fundraiser instead of my planned focus. It was still a good use of time learning how things work and how things don't. "Packages" are complicated. I had to fix issues with invoice dates, and I also setup, launched and refined the fundraising. Even later at home I pivoted to the crowdfunding setup within Moonclerk. Donations stalled midday and haven't moved since. Jen and I ran to GOBM for dinner party needs. Simple non-cooking light summer stuff and we had a pleasant summer evening enjoying pleasant summer foods on the patio with friends. Today (Saturday) was more low key and evenly paced. Tommy and I visited my mom briefly and saw Lindsey too. Tommy expressed concern about her decline to me as I had to my brother later. Quality of life matters and I'm hoping there's some relief for her on the near horizon in the realm of medication or physical therapy or even a graceful painless passing in the night… and that comes from love and experience. This is her journey and I want comfort and contentment for throughout all the time she has left. We had a casual hangout with Dom/Mary at their place which was a relaxing fun time.