Mindset: a little sad, to be honest. A little depressed. Yesterday was such a milestone, and a lot of reflection on 20 years behind me and hopefully, 20 years ahead, has me experiencing a sense of melancholy. Maybe it's because Lauren's visit was so short, and I enjoy her being around. Maybe it's recognizing the passage of time and how quickly it all seems to have gone. It's being more conscious about the passing of their mom and the 10 years spent in and dis-harmony. It wasn't necessary, yet it was in that I wasn't in the place I am now, and I appreciate it more because of that. I know, I think too much. I certainly am grateful for the awareness and presence I am experiencing, no longer banging my head against a wall trying to convince anybody to accept me for who I am or forgive me for who I'm not.
Goals: To continue before I go outline and the interview again tonight or tomorrow at the latest. I need to get that submission in and move forward.
Anticipation: Jennifer and I will attend some sort of a cello concert with her cousin tonight in Woodside.
Wants: to continue on the focused path I am re-aligning with. To complete the BIG certifications this week. To use that and my momentum to finish the website. To draft a brochure or some other sort of material, I could make it available easily through social media or physical presence. To do a little more minimizing of other distractions.
