Mindset: contemplative. I'm sitting out back watching several squirrels., scurrying and climbing about the trees. I wonder where they sleep at night. Do they burrow? Do they have some space in the corner of a bush? Do they return to the exact location every night? I doubt they wrestle with envy over other squirrels' accommodations. They seem to go with the flow, follow their nature and not be influenced by emotion, status and greed beyond mere instinctual survival or a need to be seen by anybody as anything other than a squirrel. I assume. Anyway, the morning, so my feels good on my face today. Jennifer's efforts last night to move the dirt from the front to the back were successful, and it's coming together nicely. Oh, I slept well thanks to a pain pill for my back, which is flaring up there to her exertion of trying to lift. Lift and dump dirt from a 40 gallon recycling bin. Sure it was less back-and-forth but far more difficult. Lesson learned.
Goals: none. I have no goals today. I'm not gonna try to do anything. I'm just going to be present for the day and the upcoming symposium. Actually, I do have one goal. Not to be judgmental. To have an open mind.
Anticipation: the opportunity to learn, and reinforce things i am learning.
Wants: I want all the insectd in the backyard to be gone 😊. I want to be living with less stress and frustration by recognizing that I am the source of that. learning to say no. Being more comfortable not being the one who is always responding to others wants and needs over my own. That is still a subconscious reflex. meditation and mindfulness may be all about rewiring your brain and learning to think and respond differently but it's not as if all negative feelings ever go away … they're just recogn sooner and responded to more proactively.
