Mindset: Adaptable. I read something last night that reinforced the idea of chaos in life, by Frank O., I believe. It spoke of the tendency we have to push back and fight against accepting what we can't change. I've done that and witnessed that for decades. To the point of feeling apologetic for suggesting things will "be ok", or I myself questioning the point of carrying on. Right now there's so much uncertainty in my circumstances, and something difficult, significant and game changing will indeed happen at some point. It's inevitable. Acceptance of this in advance makes me appreciate the relative calm of uncertainty with gratitude for the present and the mindset of "when" not "if". In the meantime I'm enjoying every moment of "now". All of the thoughts that define the past and future are either behind us or projections and both are distortions.
Goals: Lauren's visit will sideline some tasks but I'll be focusing on some further BIGS and jikoji tasks.
Anticipation: Voyager with Jen. 2 days of Lauren and hopefully one with Tommy along Jazz in the Plazz.
Wants: BIGS certification. attend Dan's Escalon event and a local one too. Continued awareness that the approval of others can be at the compromise of myself. Continue learning piano by perhaps taking a class or finding a teacher.
