Amazing morning. I'd toyed with venturing up to Jikoji but feared rain and fallen limbs. But Snow? SNOW! Tommy called and sent pics which inspired me to to check it out in person. For all the years I have lived here, I don't recall ever seeing it snow this much, that low. It was beautiful. Like, being in Tahoe. And it's likely to continue into next week when I'll be at Jikoji after all. THAT would be wonderful. My appt with Denise was good and helped me revisit the improbability that anything would have ever improved between Linda and I had this not happened. It's sadly likely the only way I could have gotten to be recognized for my integrity. Pretty stunning to consider. Another insight was that I have become so accustomed to living in a state of tension and anxiety that it's taken two months to finally start to see some clouds parting. AND I'm just on the cusp of reaching a "I don't care what others think" space. That's so encouraging. And warranted. The Kaiser 1:1 with Megan went reasonably well, too. I'm old and having a 'kid' trying to tell me how to consider life's experience is challenging but I know it's from a good place and education too. I'm just stunned that I'm that old guy now. Tommy had his 1st full day of work at Ramblic. We had sous vide steaks and acorn squash for dinner. I didn't get everything I wanted to get done today but I did make perhaps the most significant impact on my 'to do' list in years. I cleared out a lot of 'that'll never happen' entries. It's refreshing, but like cleaning a house out, it'll take a few passes.
