Highlights: Scottie was up all night, and I found myself outside with him twice while he meandered and sniffed and ate grass but never pooped. I was getting so angry. Irrationally angry. Like, it's our dog, and I love him, he's not feeling well, something's wrong, and I'm pissed off? I need to explore that more. It's not sane. Tommy's drive to Tahoe took over 8hrs due to the weather. But he said it was a good ski day today, which is nice. Lauren Jen and I saw "The Whale." I was impressed with the performance of Brandon Frasier, but the rest of the movie left me feeling like it was overdramatized, and the lead character didn't have the 'edge' I would have expected. We had lunch at Maggianos, and we discussed it in depth. The rains bring about a lot of maintenance needs – swollen doors, wet thresholds, and poor door seals. It's been years since I lived here, and this is my "first winter back," so there's a lot of catch-up work to do.
Accomplishments: Lauren helped me work further on the garage door seal, including taking it off and feeding through a vinyl pipe to maintain pressure. It was frustrating because I lacked the tools I needed, but I eventually found them. I was blaming Tommy, but that's not fair, it turned out what I needed wasn't in my suite of usual tools. In the end, I think I have it 90% resolved, and, if need be, a minor adjustment tomorrow will finalize the repairs.
Anticipation: Tomorrow's supposed to be excellent in the morning, so maybe we can take the dogs to Alice's early morning.
Goals: I need to focus on myself right now, and I'm not doing it enough. I am in 'response' mode to others' needs. I struggle to balance that but need to draw some firm lines.
Gratitudes: Scottie made it obvious tonight that he needed to go out after I was in bed, and I was tuned in enough to let him go out front and do his business. He's a good dog, and this time, it's not 4 am.
