For fuck's sake, can I catch my breath? I mean, seriously, the entire day felt like constant chaos. Juggling meetings, calls, and needs, all at points of three or more concurrent instances throughout the day. Tommy's giving me the silent treatment after the blowup at Panorama. WTF is that about? He's a fucking asshole, treated me like shit 80% of the time, only decently when I avoid any interaction whatsoever, and what, I'm the bad guy for saying enough is enough? Mark came to pano at lunchtime and fixed the broken door jam single-handedly. He also confirmed some insights of my own as to Tommy's character. We bought him Happy Hound and will follow up with more gratuities. Work was busy too, and I continued to evolve the cultivate report. Today was the anniversary of Matt's father's passing – 7 years, I believe – it's crazy how time passes and perspectives expand. I talked to Kathy DiPrinzio, and she's relinquishing the trust position now, which we discussed as an eventuality. We talked about the whole house thing, Tommy's vindictive nature and using her as a pawn in this desire to get back at me. It's disgusting that he's so self-centered that he's made her physically ill trying to deal with the whole situation. With the trust falling to me to manage comes the need to ensure her final bills, including tasks, are covered so I have some work to do. I'm still wrestling with the emotional aspects of my arguments with Tommy. I'm entirely justified in telling him to get on with his life and out of mine, given how badly he treats me. I still ache over the loss and always will. I take everything as permanent when nothing is, but it may be years, and meanwhile, I have to protect myself from being hurt again by letting my guard down. Ultimately, it's tragic that he's this way, and I feel responsible for allowing it. This is all old news. I'm just repeating it because it helps me maintain some perspective. I had Aqui with Jon and Cheryl and did a mock-wine tasting to get some exposure to the wide range of disciplines. It's thoughtfully structured and fascinating. The whole 'wheel' of tastes and smells was a "TIL" moment.
📊 seven-day averages: ⚖️ 161.5 lbs,❤️ 60 bpm, 👣 5111.9 steps, 🧘🏼8 min