I guess the biggest deal going on this week has been Tommy's buying a bb-gun and an air-rifle. It's such a long story but the short of it, for me, is that I just hate guns and don't see them as "toys" of any kind. And I don't consider "marksmanship" a sport. It just hits too many nerves and when he told me he'd bought them and tried to get me to not make it "a thing", well, I just can't. It is "a thing" for me. So I said I would try and then said "no, I can't" and he's now not talking to me. Again. I didn't even say he had to return them I just said not to be stored or shot at the house. Period. Jen's on the same page. We don't want BB's in our fences or the sounds disrupting our peace or having our home become a gathering place for 'sportsman' day. Honestly, the issue with them being kept there is really about drawing a line. I suppose it's not such a huge deal and maybe i'll agree they can be kept there but it's just disappointing to have him have that interest at all. It's hard for me, like riding a motorcycle would be, as a parent. I am really out of touch with this area and other parents have them. In any case we're not talking and i'm doing all I can to just not pull the hawaii trip plans and abort moving into Panorama at all, it's all contention and resentment. I've had a hard couple of days with this, with work demands and feeling completely overwhelmed and micromanaged, and with that recurring feeling of just being in reaction mode. I'd love to take a month off and do nothing but read and write. I've seen Linda a couple of times this week and she's continuing a downward trend. She's apparently not eating as much but she was eating when I visited yesterday. She was almost snoring inbetween and the nurse was saying "wake up Linda" as she fed her. WTF? Do these people NOT get it? Infuriating. Jen's been struggling with the pressures with her work, Tommy, my responses to Tommy and such as well. Scottie's seemed to rebound from that whole awful blood issues but i'm not convinced there's nothing wrong. That was too weird and not explained to my satisfaction. I've been using work meetings for walking/talking time to ensure i keep my daily steps up now that Lauren's driving to school each day. She loves it and I'm enjoying the mini when I get to drive it too. We visited my mom after school, helped her with a few household tasks and will return Saturday to do more. She's aging and starting to struggle with the 'simple' things we take for granted like changing light bulbs. Lauren's been really sweet and helpful. And we got Strada/Quiche too.
📊 seven-day averages: ⚖️ 159.7 lbs,❤️ 62 bpm, 👣 6020.8 steps, 🧘🏼17 min, 🛌 6h:3m