I asked for an employment agreement. I got the signed copy back… with this warning. :-/
Highlight(s): Staying up late makes getting up at 6am tricky. Getting Lauren at 10.30pm makes getting to bed early tricky, too. However, I slogged through the effort and made it up and out, and down and back, then walked Scottie solo again, too, before settling into the workday. This was yet another well-focused day attending primarily to real-time events throughout an entire morning of meetings. I went to SRC to see Linda and talk to Dr. Silva. She's somewhat the same but has decreased in responsiveness. I've been wrong, so many times about what'll likely happen next, so much so that speculating seems ignorant. But the Dr himself seemed pretty confident that the plateau can't continue for much longer, and further degradation is on the horizon. She fell asleep after a brief visit, and I left feeling sad and melancholy about this entire situation. While she was awake and we were talking, I told her that we were doing all we could to help her "through this ."I believe she hears and understands me, but I don't know that she comprehends or retains. This is an awful process to have to stand by and watch play out. It's more inhumane than assisted dying would be. Nobody wants her to die, but she is and will, likely soon, and with every passing day, in a worsening condition. Why must they prolong this? How is this "right" in any manner whatsoever? It's disgusting, disturbing, and immoral. Anyway, I left and returned home and continued working. I made good progress on work tasks. But I didn't put time into personal projects, which is becoming a problem. I wanted to carve out time between 4-6 for such things, thinking it would be 'between demands,' but that's not proving to be the case. And it's also seeming to be the time I'm most productive keeping up with work demands. So I have to revisit that plan and see if I can work something else into a good routine. I sous vide'd two NY steaks, and we enjoyed a nice dinner together before going to work on our respective projects/tasks for the evening. Mine sadly gravitated towards work again. However, it's been rewarding and productive to reengage and care about my accomplishments.
Gratitude: Feeling engaged and empowered and in a good position at work.
Goal(s): Figure out how to work more creative focus and personal accomplishments into my weekdays.
Health: Weight: 161 (1d: +1, 7d avg: -0.14) | Steps: 7600 | Heart Rate: 62
Habits: Mediation Presence Calm Action