Pants'd Pirate!
Jen's in Angels Camp for a girl's weekend as of Friday, and I'm solo with the dogs and kids. I was going to spend both days, all day, going through the garage at Panorama, but with this brief window of time having the house to myself, I'm reconsidering that idea. It's nice to have the house relatively to myself. Yesterday I visited Linda in the morning. She was sleeping and is sleeping more and more. I was on an exec call, talking when she suddenly started snoring like a 400lb walrus. Lovely. I had to apologize, reach for and touch her, which caused her to stop. I talked to Dr. Silva about her condition and he agrees that she's declining again and has in the past week. They're going to throttle the Lorazepam (anxiety) meds back 25% and we will watch for that does. Her breathing seems deeper, and she's stopped breathing (seemingly) for stretches of time that have caused me concern. He and I discussed the Michael Pollen podcast he'd recommend about psychedelics for dying patients as well as the whole "aid in dying" laws recently passed and how constrictive they are. He referred to the nature of medical practices as "arcane" and "byzantine", which I thought was spot on. I watched the HBO documentary he recommended, "Alternative Endings", and it was great. It touched on 3 key aspects of my focus – living wakes, green burials, and the right to die. I don't know why it's so hard to have these be openly adopted but ti suspect it's tied to religion, the 20 billion dollar funeral industry, and the inability of the medical community to evolve and put people before profit. Both dogs last night were missing Jen, Scottie most of all. He was clearly thrown by her absence. I'm visiting Linda right now, no change, and heading to have lunch with my mom, grab a couple of tickets to an upcoming play in Nov to surprise Jen, tackle a few tasks at Panorama, and return to Matson for the remainder of the day. It's a warm one, the last for a while, and I want to enjoy the patio one more time.
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