I tried starting Tuesday off positively with a walk with Lauren. The orange cloud-filled sunrise was spectacular. I squeezed a couple meditations in prior, and that was positive too. But it went south quickly and my attitudes was pretty shitty for the last day or so. It'd just been a series of taxing demands and incidents. Nothing more than 1st world inconveniences that are not always understood as such when the umpteenth things goes awry. Sigh. Still, there were some highlights including some positive exchanges with my kids. I fixed the door knob at Pano (replaced) and have things all keyed alike now. Tommy did some work on his car and I told him sincerely how much I admired both his patience and the ability he's had for all his life to take things apart, understand how they work and put them back together. Lauren had Wed off so we had a family dinner at Luna. I have continued my focus on getting back in shape by increasing some daily exercise routines. I broke down an ordered my own Yeti mug after a few weeks of taking Jen's and really loving it for evening tea. I resolved some issues with the automated patio lights and refined some of the schedules for the house, and even ordered a new light for the bedroom that I can setup for gradual "sunrise" lighting, inspired by Tuesday's AM skies. As winter approaches I want to continue to wake as 'naturally' as I did when the sun was coming up by 6am. I have also managed to tackle and check off a few work related demands which feels great. Lauren's been driving more and doing well. It's hard to not over-direct so I'm going to try backing off on commentary tomorrow. Today's "BIG" training was good. I was at SRC from 8.30-2pm. I expected to get out sooner but 1st the Dr arrived, then I had that training session and after that there was a flurry of work demands that just kept me at the back of the court trying to return every volley. Things with Linda remain somewhat the same but there's less communication then there seemed to be when we first reduced the morphine. The Dr and hospice nurse were both there today and we agreed to remove it completely and see if the end result is she remains the same, which will validate it being the tumor, as the rest of the meds, now only three, are for anxiety, seizure prevention and steroids to keep the brain swelling down. It's honestly, sincerely a brutal horrible situation for her. I would never want to endure this. There's new laws that allow 'assisted dying' paths but they're so narrow that situations like this are excluded. And you can't express that wish in our advanced directive. It's horrible and along with other areas of interest and focus that have come from this, I've reached out tonight to see what I might be able to do as a volunteer for a nation wide organization lobbying to refine and improve these laws.