Matt came down Friday afternoon and we made some local rounds including Kirks, Streetlight, as well as Madronia. It was surreal to stand at Tom P's grave sight and know that not only Jay's in there but Linda w/be next to them in likely a year or less. I'm trying to be optimistic and realistic which as mentioned before, is not an easy task. Visited w/her Friday am before Matt arrived. It was the most honest and direct conversation we've had in months. Admissions, apologies, aspirations and assumptions were all on the table. It was a positive step. Had a tough night w/Tommy earlier this week and we ended up having a family discussion of sorts with him. Since then old habits returned. It's straining and draining to work through but I'm going to keep trying. Stromboli with Mattx3 on Friday PM was great but it was 'tailgate' and it made things feel rushed. Fortunately we're going to Matt's event at Satori tomorrow so we'll see how that goes, it should be great. Jen's at Vanessa's for a party there, I'm hanging on the patio in the cool but bearable evening. Lauren worked a full shift today, will tomorrow and next Saturday too. We all three (Tommy, Lauren and I) visited his mom after getting Lauren at Vasona. That was good but Tommy was in a grumpy mood about his car, which he learned will now cost $500 more than he'd have paid had her fixed it as he was told to do. Life sessions are under way.
