Sunday, April 25, 2021

Today was a really good day, in the scope of what can make a day 'good' given the circumstances. It started by being awakened by Tommy at 7.30am waking me to tell me he was going to his moms. OK. Good to know and nice that he's still showing the consideration of letting us know where he's at, or at least originating at, for his day. It also gave license to sleeping in. Dom and Mary were over last night, big fun on the patio with various whiskeys and stories, but it caught up to me later as it's prone to do. SO sleeping late was welcome. I'm still drinking a lot for my usual pace. But then again my pace has accelerated as well so there's that rationalization to hide behind. The morning was really nice and quiet and after waking the dog we went to the farmer's market together and meandered. Wme returned home and she made keto McGriddles. We went for groceries. We languished. It was so nice for a change to not be stressing over time based needs and demands. In parallel Lindsey was helping my mom with dehydration, lack of sleep and more. She took her to the hospital and they attribute it to detoxing from sleeping pill prescription and got her stabilized. She'll be calling the doctor tomorrow am. But we did have a task at hand - Getting meds to Saratoga Retirement Community. We got and dropped Lauren at work and headed over. The place is beautiful. The people were kind. Her room is awesome. It's hard to keep in mind that this isn't a 'vacation', it's the start of the end of her life. It'll be a nice start and has the potential to be the painful conclusion. For now, I remain in relative denial. Lauren got off work early and came to walk the dogs and we watched Grey's Anatomy and returned her to Pano. Kelly was there, and Golida, so I used the opportunity to introduce Golida to the Malbec and we all had Roblechon cheese, crackers and wine. Linda pssed on wine. Cheese was great but needed to be more room temperature. Golida loved the wine, a lot. It was good to see her out and on the couch, which she did once I arrived. I wonder if it's because she knew I'd press on it. Or it was about dinner. Whatever the case, she was in good spirits. That'll help her as she makes this transition. Jen came with me to the facility to drop the meds and such. We had such a good day. She made me some 'almond joy' bars that were incredible. As was our joint-venture salad earlier. We also had a good sincere talk this am about birthdays and expectations (none) and her own background. I told her that milestones don't matter, birthdays and anniversaries don't matter, all that matters is what we have and live on a daily basis.