…timing is everything
GNO last night included day 2 of the newly defined days per week I'll allow myself 1 drink. I had 2. Whiskey. Not massive pours but still more than one 'true' typical drink. I felt fine, but had a horrible headache and had been drinking water. My body's telling me something. So are podcasts I now listen to daily, including one discussing the whole similar experience, this am's release. The idea of a dry January and people feeling better. I'm not sure what I want to do, as I really don't consider myself anywhere near problematic in the least, I just want to lose weight and improve my health and reduce any 'routine' behavior that includes having a drink outside of a social or dining event. There must be something to the fact hat apps likes Strides and other goal setting tools and systems and plans include moderation or stopping drinking in their templates, while none promote starting or increasing. Hmmm. The wine I had Monday went well with the steak dinner and it didn't give me any issues at all. In any case, I'm 'dry' again until Monday when the week resets. Many of the other habits I'm tracking are going well, but I'm still making minor adjustments in frequencies and/or what warrants a positive or negative entry. The end goal of being more conscious and mindful, though, is succeeding. Work was quite busy with a slew of juggling of internship and GDPR/CCPA compliance tasks along with the routine responses/presence. I need to get more 1:1 time w/the team, maybe that should be a habit too. (Just set it up, so, yeah, it's a tracked goal). Walked to GOBM and back, helped with closing circles. Standing and Moving are good, exercise is lacking. That's something I want to start putting into practices via Fitness+. I had some back/forth w/Linda about some shared bills, Lauren updates, and promoting some mindfulness. Stepping lightly and with caution but hoping it continues to be a healthier dynamic, which will benefit us both and the kids too. Long way to go, but remain open and optimistic. Ran to Costco w/Tommy then took and dropped food at my moms. Got "The Untethered Soul" back. Returned Paula's hand written note to it. Tommy was a butt head all night. He's tense, restless, frustrated but also rude, condescending, defensive and just plain mean and unpleasant. As much as I enjoyed the time we spent yesterday afternoon/evening, I feel like I can't fully relax and trust him to treat me reasonably. I know this is complex, tied to all sorts of teenage angst and identify and conflict and more. I just find it hard to turn the other cheek so much. And it tests my patience. I do better being 'ready for anything' than not. Chatted with Lauren, she pressed through the pain today without meds. Interesting that she wanted to do so. Admitted that dinner was a challenge and she almost caved but did not. Sounds like one side's swelling more that the other, hopefully that'll go down soon. She'll be with us Sat PM so we'll need to plan on soft foods which his required through next Wednesday.