I'm clearly watching too much Wes Anderson
Good start to my day with some focused meditations on consistency of practice and on letting go of background thoughts and distractions and focus on the moment. The distractions will still be there later. Valuable reminder. Tommy was pretty self-isolating throughout the day, resentful it seems about having any restrictions imposed during working hours. It's hard being in a small house. Hopefully he'll get some respite over the weekend. I worked inside at the dining room table and was super-busy all day. Got a lot done. It rained in the afternoon and I love the rain so I sat in the patio, enjoying the sound of rain on the metal roof. Jen made a great keto enchilada pie for dinner. Having wrapped up a full work day I spent the evening refining some habit tracking tools. I'm enjoying having the Apple Watch again. It's been really convenient to have shopping lists and reminders on my wrist again, amongst other features that are helping me focus and stay on task. I watched "Unfit" too, about Trump's mental status. What's happened in these last 4 years does not represent our so-called ideals and belief systems. It's put a spotlight on some of the very dark and disturbing aspects of human nature. How he got there is difficult to rationalize and believe but this documentary really helps lay out the logic behind his actions, and his appeal. I have to have faith in 'humanity' but humanity hasn't really shown that to be a reliable bet. There's an 'existential terror' that can come from looking at the big picture for too long. I miss having hope. It's being touted in the new administration and I'm fully on board with being part of the solution, but the problems need a hell of a lot more time and attention than I think people living in bubbles, like. Me, can fully understand or relate to.