Enjoyed a day of PTO today. Dropped T at LGSR. I was pissed as hell at him last night but I don't what that impacting what I consider a healthy focus and activity. Lauren came with me to pick him up and dropped her at Pano. Went to Philz and read/wrote a bit. Picked up a bottle of Uncle Nearest on sale at BevMo just so I have a backup. Good stuff. I continue to vacillate between accepting that booze is just plain bad vs really enjoying the experience of a nice glass of whiskey. It's more of a ritual, I think, than a need. I definitely have a strong desire to return to a healthy EOY goal but daily routines introduce too many temptations. I have lost my footing on that path and need to regain focus and direction. I'll start again tomorrow w/the keto focus and 10/2/6 meals. I'm tempted to return to the more aggressive path from 9 years ago. Maybe. It was pretty strict but also effective and maintained for at least 2+ years. I'm constantly going with the moment then regretting it at the end of the day. Sigh. :-/. Played Rummikub w/Jen and Lauren. Vinnie's here w/Tommy overnight.