Sunday, September 13, 2020



Saturday morning started off with a routine dog-walk interrupted by our coming across a set of a small animal's 'internal organs' on the sidewalk about 4 houses away. Now, we've had coyotes spotted and cats have gone missing and every time I see our neighbor's cat, "Oreo", I hope that they keep him in at night. In fact I kept wanting to mention it to Stephanie but never made the effort. Finding this just wrenched my gut, thinking it was Oreo remains I was looking at. We finished our walk and about 5 hours in the other direction, I spotted and identified the head and tail of a mouse. To me, the size differences between this and the 'guts' were too different and these were separate incidents. I collaborated with neighbors, verified Oreo and other pets were accounted for and texted w/my mom about her own experiences and such. I shared photos with her (the more graphic one is withheld here) and it seems likely it's the same animal. As I put it to her, "It makes more sense than two concurrent, but unrelated, animal homicides occurring within a few hundred yards of each other." I spent the AM focused on 'getting things done' by setting aside my procrastination for the moment (get it?) and tackled more tasks I wanted to get accomplished. It's rewarding in the end and inspirational too. I've grown a bit lazy of late and this is a good change to make. I like staying on top of things, and I want to revive my mantra of doing things that need to be done before doing things I want to do instead. I finally cleared out the work-hardware from the bedroom and other scattered clutter. I also tackled staining the long thin "table" behind the couch, with included realizing I had bought a 'base' stain that needed color, not a premixed wood stain. I resorted to literally using food color and balsamic vinegar mixed in! At first, feared it would not work out, it looked purple, but it dried nicely. I ended up getting a clear gloss coating and it's now drying and will be back in place shortly. Jen took off to visit a work friend nearby and Tommy came and hung out. There was some tension about it between he and his mom but it ended up being ok'd. After getting a few things checked off of my list, I settled in and enjoyed watching some random stuff, but started and stopped watching the Netflix documentary, "The Social Dilemma" until Jen and I could watch together. Wow! It was fantastic. I loved it. It's a 'choir preaching moment', admittedly, but rings true from my own observations and experiences. The line "If you're not paying for the product, you are the product" resonated deeply. I know this going in, I willingly accept targeted ads and such in order to use things like Google's products, including this blogging platform. I do think good things have come from all of these tools and systems. As an adult I feel like it's my responsibility to manage and balance my time and "addiction" to anything. However, as one of the people interviewed said, the intended use and what ends up happening on the platform are sometimes not what was expected. The point made of the impact on children and adults too, with the use of AI/ML to systematically and aggressively work to maintain continued engagement, is something I'm intimately familiar with, and it s not a "fair fight", as they put it. In fact, part of why I stopped posting on Facebook and Twitter and Instagram was because I didn't want my content to be a gateway to this sort of systemic problem. I'll be watching this again, and sharing it, too. Ultimately, this is the sort of movement I'd love to be a part of, working to put more 'ethics, integrity and balance' into our society.