The process of getting 'back on my feet' came relatively quickly. Most of the people in the medical profession have remarked on the speed and intensity of my recovery. But it doesn't always feel like it. My energy remains diminished and of late, the past 3 or 4 days to be specific, I've found my walking the feel off again. Not in a 'relapse' manner but more in a 'healing' fashion. As if areas have heeled and others are in process, so things feel different and off as the transitions occur.
Today was a day of rest and it was welcome. I actually slept in for the first time in some time and it was rewarding. I worked on a range of projects and tasks and ran a few errands and watch some random crap on TV while letting my legs take a break for the most part.
Sitting still remains a struggle. I spent too many years feeling like idle time was wasted time. I'm trying to find the balance and recognize that idle time is healing time. Physically and mentally, taking time to do nothing is actually doing something. It's what vacations are about. It's what day's off are about. But when you're accustomed to being ruled by a long list of to-do's, rest risks an increasing backlog.
Today was a good day to relax, do some reflection, and try and recognize that doing so would ultimately enable me to do more in the long run. Like the need to take time and exercise in order to have the endurance to do more over time. Or to allow my body to continue to heal.
I hope I can ultimately make these habits ingrained instead of needing conscious effort.