Jen's Tuesday's are pretty consistent these days. She's walking weekly with Deanna at 6am. That's impressive. Tuesday's was my routine "Howes Your Coffee" day but that stalled I am hoping to change it around to be a walking gig as well. Only it's a "weakly" effort at this point and needs a kickstart. Today ended up being a pretty productive one. It started with Jen clearing out the standing desk setup we had for her working days, which needed collaboration on what goes where. I have been needing to start moving things around and out of the garage and this was the impetus. I was somewhat irritated and impatient about it because it ''derailed' my plans to write, yet it did end up being a far better use of the morning. I managed to clear a lot of clutter, move things about, reduce and consolidate, and posted a number of things for free on Craigslist including the golf clubs Tommy picked up for free some 5 months ago and did nothing with, an antique desk that was Linda's and perhaps a family heirloom, and Scottie's crate. The last two were emotional checkpoints in the aspects of 'letting go'. We dropped a bunch of stuff at Savers, including some of Scottie's things. Ugh. It's still challenging and hard. I guess it always will be. I'll say it again, I did not expect this level of attachment and this deep sense of loss. I feel like I face a loss with my son soon too. We're still not talking. I'm growing more and more detached. I don't trust him to the point that distance feels safer than being close. I put up the Christmas lights. It went super fast due to having packed them last year in a manner that made pulling them out and getting them hung easy. They're simple 'icicle' strands and can change colors but I prefer the soft white. I spent some time at the end of the day trying to triage the annoying squeak on the elliptical and i think I have it narrowed down to the foot placement pieces. It's been a time suck going down wrong paths but I'm determined to resolve it. I'm also working on a surprise for Jen. More on that another time.
⚖️177.4(-1.2) ❤️62(61-118)🩸118/83 👣 10,958/4.9mi (🧘♂️ 🏃♂️)
