Friday, August 15, 2025

Highlights: The long-awaited SLAC tour was a bit of a letdown. I don't know what I expected, but it wasn't this. And in hindsight, I should have. It was a deep science and technology dive at a molecular level. Literally. Levels so beyond my caveman's understanding that Grok just stay still. Hope science not smell Grok, or hear his breathing. That we know all we know about the matter that is the universe and ourselves is almost as impressive as the scale of what we don't. So much has been unraveled by our species over our its existence yet it's dramatically dwarfed by our ignorance beyond that point. Still, after some 50yrs driving by the 2-mile long accelerator I finally saw the inside. Dinner with Dom and Mary was good. I needed it.

Insight: I've been cranky. I'm stressed. Short. I am drained. I have a lot I erroneously believe I am responsible for a lot things. Some I am but not all. Changes are happening in ways that are uncertain. That's uncomfortable for me. Change always is. But comfort can create complacency, stilling momentum and nurturing apathy. The more I delay and procrastinate the less I might achieve with the time remaining. I need a change.