Highlights: Up, out, up, and seated for morning Zazen with Marko, Carlin and Ethan. Quite a small group, and with a sesshin next week, not a lot on deck for the weekly meeting. I had an awful time with the sit due to allergies. Still it felt good to go even though it took an effort to do so. I had stopped at Madronia on the way back from Jikoji, taking time to revisit some of the notes for the book, photos and assorted moments that help me maintain a healthy perspective and intention in what I write. I returned home with enough time to make it to pickup Lauren at the Train station and back home. She took Tommy and I to Los Gatos Cafe for lunch, and it was a very pleasant experience. They each seem to be in good places. In a text exchange we learned that Francesco was next door and could plant the two trees today. They are in the ground. Now we watch them grow. Lauren and I visited my mom, returned home and lounged awhile before a mountain drive and Phase 10.
Insights: I am tired, and anxious about a good many unknowns on the horizon, yet I have a comfort in my confidence that those who mean so much to me know it as inately as I feel it.