I have written a lot more than I have posted. I don't remember when my last post might have been, but I have other efforts in various stages, yet nothing "live." Why is that? What's getting in my way? It's complicated. It's a minor but repetitive series of steps between writing it and having it live. Sending, scrubbing, adding a photo, blah blah blah. Or I simply stop at 80% and never (seldom) return for the final 20. Isn't that a common occurrence? Across the board, I'm always 80° into something in one hand and 20% into the next. As I live through all my experiences, I end up not stopping to capture them all. Today was a good, complete and rewarding day. What a difference a day makes.words to live by. Upset over Jen's absence, Scottie has been sulking and being in his crate. He seems to like it and was there all night last night. I slept deeply and well. So deeply that I missed a 12:48am call from Lauren to tell me she would pay for her emergency room visit. Or maybe at that moment, it was in search of insurance details. But she did have an accident on her scooter due to a small rock bringing it to a sudden stop. My heart sank slightly as it returned to the vivid memory of a childhood faceplant at Pine Mountain Lake I had witnessed in slow motion. She said when we talked this morning that after Tommy's ski accident, she thought, "That means I 'm next." And boom! she was. The worst part sounds like the puffy eye. They have their young adult life experiences now, as I had my own long ago, and I have to watch and accept the loss of control I never had in the first place. This chat was after returning from my walk and coffee. The pylons are out, but so is the jury on their effectiveness. The weekly meeting was good. Really good. Productive. My call with Dr Goyal, my new PCP at Stanford, went very well. I feel reminded and inspired to return to a cardio routine like I had and maintained as far back as I can remember. Sporadically. It's time to start a new habit - Cardio & strength training. I am going to get an elliptical and make it a daily routine. I went hiking with Mark to "The Plateau" off of overlook. It was epic and jaw-dropping. I sous-vided a 2. 5lb pork to perfection. Tommy removed the nerve blockers this morning and was gone all day. He shared in the evening how many places he went and how the knee-based mono-cruth was practical and helpful. It was a very well-lived day, spent with awareness and gratitude for not just the day but all of these before it.
