I journal nightly. Mostly. And about 70% gets spelling/grammar checked and posted with an image of some moment of significance. Mostly. (The rest gets set aside for some reworking or use elsewhere.) A friend once commented on my writing here as a "stream of consciousness" while making that face one makes after someone farted. It did not feel complimentary. It is a journal. What else were you expecting? Take today, for example. It's been amazing for so many little moments, and I know their supply limits. All fell together around getting Tommy's car, pairing it for future ease, stopping at Marc's on the way back, having brought a 32oz thermos that I keep filled for just such an occasion. The sunrise on the walk was photo-worthy, with purple hues carpeting the layers of clouds illuminated by the rising son. Back home, I * finally * succeeded with the archive copies, images and compressions. I still struggled with setting up the screen & computer for the Zen Center. It went south yet again, necessitating machinations that irritated and annoyed me. I was aware of the building annoyance while trying not to fall into the rabbit hole. I don't know where that all stems from, childhood most likely, but the day at that moment felt like a significant downgrade from most of late. Then I picked up Lauren, and it instantly flipped to the more upbeat and joyful side. We are in such a good place as a family. It's something I marvel at. Because it's better than mine was, or Jen's, or theirs with Linda and I. We have all entered this space with deep gratitude for sharing it and pride in creating it together. We went to In 'n Out, ran some errands, picked up a bike, had dinner with Dom and Mary, and played games. Scottie was very off this morning, with something related to constipation or intestinal issues. He seems to be a bit better but at one point his trembeling made me wonder if he might just die right then and there. Tommy had a very full day including helping Alta Vista with their school play, as he has annually. He's very invested and capable in doing this and I appreciate his charcter.
