No, I did not get my 2-mile walk today but thank you for asking. What are you, the habit police? Haven't I done enough? AM meditation, daily calm, playing ball with Lucky, and fielding a few zen center tasks isn't enough? My god, the level of expectations you have of me is absurd. Sigh. This is the inner monologue I face. Mom's video visit with her oncologist was a positive one. She's doing very well at this stage and may well track beyond the 18-month median. That's great, yet her physical constraints and decline mean a probable need for assistance in the year ahead. It's an occasional need but may become a more demanding or full time need. I will need to put some effort into ways to best manage this and to ensure my time is all accounted for as far as the executor role goes. I am also looking at starting to collect my social security next year, or not. A lot will depend on how long the process takes and if our resources can get me thru to 65. 1.5 more years. Although by then it'll potentially be gutted by the Trump team. Life feels so filled with uncertainty, and yet when is it not? It's just whether we are facing or ignoring it that has any impact. The annual GNO dinner tonight was wonderful and we all enjoyed a nice meal, wines, laughter and an under current of awareness of the passage of time. Never not gratifying.
