I've been in a foul mood all day. Lucky had me up at 4 AM, empathetically comforting him as he vomited up more candy wrappers. Dark Chocolate Sea Salt Carmel FTW. I slept in a bit but felt lazy doing so. Jen was having internet issues, which was also annoying because 1: I am the only one who tries to triage the problems when they occur and B: The problem I found was something I'd not expect anyone else to have solved and resolved anyway. Having a bridge supporting the garage door app is not worth the hassle. It's gone. Tommy pushed my buttons, as is typical when asked to clean up the bathroom, and I can only take so much attitude from someone I give so much support to. Jen and I returned from a GOBM run to find that Lucky ripped into one of the sets of sample raw decaf beans I had just received yesterday to roast. I am furious about it. It wasn't even eaten, which is good. So why do this? Just to spread them all over the kitchen, garage and backyard? Two strikes, dog. A third strike means a name change and a short stay at a "facility" before you spend eternity in a wonderful place where dogs run free, play all day and eat all they want. We'll need to give you a tiny shot to help you relax for the trip. OK, I'm not serious, but I have enough to manage with this added oversight. As I said, I am in a foul mood today. The neck and back pain isn't helping either. I also had to wrestle with trying to make sense of why Jen's Apple Watch wasn't connecting to her iPhone and found myself having to resist acting on frustrations and instead reset and re-pair. 1st world problem, yes, but another time suck away from other thing I wanted to do. I know and do consider it a blessing to be needed and able to help. Still, today reminded me of the scene in Mary Poppins when Burt tells the kids to cut their father some slack, that he's carrying the weight of helping and providing for others but nobody's there helping or providing for him. There are things I'd like help with, too, instead of always having to be doing on demand.
I had a challenging day today. I strive to live to a high ideal. One of the best things about some of the StoZenDao authors or people I know firsthand is that they’re all transparently and humbly human in body and mind. Nobody’s perpetually “got this”; they’re just consistently trying their best to “get this” the best they can. Expectations and frustrations are seldom out of reach of one another. We all have challenging days, the purpose of which is growth. After all, tomorrow is another day.
