I want to look only at the current moment and ahead, not back.
Back is not bad, mind you. In fact it's already all here, in these pages, in great detail. And all this "back" has informed and influenced the "now" and "ahead" in more good ways than imaginable. Even in the "bad" back there is good to be found.
"Ahead" is certainly filled with uncertainty. Shit will definitely be going down in 2025. In many ways, with foresight and forewarning while, in at least one case, a full-on blindsiding.
I used to lecture Linda about how all the prevention will never prevent what you did not see coming. Now, I find myself immensely conscious of this and slightly more empathetic to her struggle to find peace within the unknown.
In the realm of my focus and intention for the year ahead, I will commit to the following:
- Work with at least three paying clients, hopefully more.
- Complete and publish the book.
- Spend 1d/wk working at my mom's.
- Return to and stay in the 170's
That's "only" four goals for the entire year. But I know I can do these all while being fully aware that both knowns and unknowns lie ahead. No matter how still I stand, the incidentals of existence remain in motion all around me.
If journaling has taught me anything, it's that no day ever goes completely as expected, planned or desired. How dull knowing everything that will happen would be. The unknown is what adds the drama, comedy, tragedy, losses and achievements, the humanity, to living your own story, fully.