It's hard to fathom that it reached 103° today. On October 2nd. How this happened was predicted, denied and disputed. Delayed. I was glad to have a cool place for the day. At least the "winter" electricity rates kicked back in yesterday. $20 says those dates are going to compress or shift. It was pleasant in the yard this morning. I filled and hung the two additional hummingbird feeders, much to their approval. I guess I'm a bird-guy now. i just hope they start eating gnats along with the sugar-water concoction I put out to draw them in. 'Fun 'n Function", I always say. (not). I made a call to help Tommy get on a payment plan for the medical bill. I'm aligning other ideas. I set up an MRI and consulted on the 1st weekend of November. Oh, and continued chasing down Lauren's medical history. I made meatballs for dinner, including whipping up some 'forage'd indgredients. I got a late-night bike ride in with Mark. I started thinking again about "life's story": individual and shared experiences, identity, and being transitional, transactional and transformational states through the entire journey. That then all ends with you. Or…does it?. I returned home to "my wife and my dog." It is truly a happy home. Tommy's come so far and is maturing. I'm grateful and better for having gone through the hard times we'd had. I failed to recognize the hard times HE had, and I still struggle to stay conscious of them. His own varied and buried trauma and guilt. I believe he'll be ok with time and experience behind him. The same course, both as in 'lesson' and 'pathway,' that we are all in unison and independently. Speaking of which, I miss Lauren. She's heads down and seemingly heads turned away, too. Perhaps it's simply my own insecurity, or maybe instead, intuition or both. Meanwhile, I'm trying not to be the hovering parent.
