Laugh … It's still there
Highlights: A 13 + mile ride from Los Gatos to Saratoga. Progress continues on the 21ˢᵗ birthday book, but it's time-consuming and emotionally charged; I go through the photos. The book is being outlined, and it's quickly becoming evident that I will need to trim a substantial amount of content. The meeting at the Forum was postponed. Yet we had an opportunity to have a rewarding and encouraging conversation with a few people. I have started reviewing many of my notes and resources as I strive to gain exposure and experience. The BMW buyer changed their mind, and although I am disappointed, I am rolling with it; it will get more interest in the weeks ahead. I'm no longer in Arush, given that it's all ready to go. Mom's doing well, and we had a pleasant dinner last night. Lindsey helped her today by going through more of the shelf contents. It's been very complicated trying to balance emotions, reality, acceptance and the general experience of the past few years as my mom's health issues remain a constant, as I look through the years of photos chronicling my kid's lives before, during and after the divorce and Linda's death, and as I revisit and, in some instances, dredge up painful memories. I can't call it hard-it's genuine-but it is an intense place to dwell for extended periods.