.... and sometimes, sleeping in can be restorative. The silence between discussions around doctors and mortality rates contributed to a more restful night than most. I even considered getting up for the "beta" Zazen-Zoom effort without knowing it would happen but returned to bed instead. And it did happen. It will again, and I'll be there. If that initiative pans out, I may donate the other iPad now, as it's not a necessary or utilized object to hold onto. My morning routine of staying off tech may evolve to allow for this. Ideally my, self discipline would be sufficient to not need toremove temptation from my path, but get a tray of warm tortilla chips and cheese queso in front of me and see what happens.. Yeah, I need to maintain a conscious focus on the long-term goals. Speak of which, It looks like I will be attending a full day Buddism based "end-of-life event on Saturday. I was reading "Being Upright" last night and found reading about interdependence and the self wildly familiar. much. He-to Stoic texts, it resonates. if it makes sense, it feels validating, in a way, of a lifetime of ideals and interests. I thought more about this and recognized how belief systems, philosophy or religion might manifest in someone's life like this. If it were a polar opposite belief-8 would likely not entertain it. It begs the question: does the person find a philosophy or does a philosophy find (as in, gradually make sense to over time) the person?
Oh, and I recently found an opportunity to smile. Out of context. In what otherwise might have been a contentious situation. It changed everything for me, my experience, and them. The smile came about quite naturally, resulting from realizing in real time that the tension was insignificant within the scope of my life, theirs, and any living being all the way down to the unseen ant walking along a nearby floorboard. It was all just ego and opinion, neither worth our time. Perspective is a powerful asset
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