Morning Mindset: Irritation. The dogs waking me earlier than my alarm or intention can be annoying. But my threshold is low. I need some things to change. I'm not happy and that's always on me and mine to control. I can't make Tommy consider that he doesn't need to sell the Tesla. I can't make Lauren open up about closing off. I can't make the dogs not bark at ups trucks. I can't make Jen responsible for my insecurities when they arise. Only I have have control over my responses to the things outside of my control. Accepting and making that second nature is my aspiration and a challenge. What's got my focus right now is that turning all this energy in that direction will absolutely resolve any frustration, self doubt and even sorrow over something as significant as the separation of a level of connection to my family that is inevitable and healthy. What might break my heart may strengthen theirs
Goals: regain and reclaim traction on my own actions, awareness and intenion. Focus on inspiration. All day. All week.
Anticipation: exitidy redux.
Wants: I am considering taking the week off from posting. Giving myself a week of relative subjective silence. A mini-self-sesshin. 7 days. Starting now. Back next week.
