Morning Mindset: I continue to wonder how to best engage fully in the actions needed to get further traction on my business idea. I recognize that I missed an opportunity yesterday. I will have another and not do the same. I recognize the nature of avoidance still present in the taking on of other tasks that check a box and fulfill a sense off accomplishment and purpose, but not ones that move me further along the priority road. I have a sense of foreboding anticipation tied to things both expected and not. It's similar to the feeling I had entering 2021 that a major event lied ahead. But that's an easy blanket statement with no specifics. Look at me I'm Sylvia Brown. There'll always be some kind of challenge on the horizon until there is no tomorrow for me. So, ok, my control is limited and significance is inevitable. It's back to responding to it. That admittedly remains a challenge. After some time spent understanding my daughter's reflections and processing her experiences I let an annoying medical bill frustrate me beyond reason. I fell into the abyss of anger over the insurance and medical industries and the sense of having no control. Duh. I got myself back on track but it took focus and awareness to do so. It's an ongoing practice. At least I see progress. Significant progress in fact.
Goals: Clear clutter. Install hall light. Get a good walk in with Jen.
Anticipation: Making pasta I can't eat.
Wants: Patience and awareness that the annoying obstacles and diversions throughout all of my waking hours are my own choices, and that the return trip to retrieve from the room whatever I went into there to get a min ago but forgot once there, and only remembered once I left, are typical, comical, and it helps me hit my daily steps goals sooner :-).
