Sigh. Bye.
Where to start? I didn't 'start' the day with the AM mindset but, shhhhh…, it happens. Coffee was good, again. Threw another roast on the fire, so to speak, to continue making hopefully more optimal refinements. I double the weight and added 2 min to the wait. A bit more, a bit longer. It looks 'right' in comparison to the prior day's. I'll know more in the morning. The day was pretty full from the start with the majority of time being spent managing a slew of back-and-forth Q&A sessions around Lauren's Mini from a prospective buyer. They came down from Alameda after feeling confident enough to anticipate taking it, they got a positive diagnosis done at a local service place, and much to my emotional dismay, "Penelope" now belongs to another owner. I'm sure she'll change the name. I'm glad for some reasons and sad for others. As I told Lauren, life is about transitions and changes. I mentally thanked the car on my final drive with her today for all of the wonderful memories over the past 22 months. Lauren's buying her, mountain drives, they routine pickups from Yogurtland listening to Tears for Fears, and of course the 50 mph crawl back from Tahoe to Folsom with the flashers on and a flat tire. It was a good run. It was a great time. It was an epic moment in the past few years of a span of epic moments shared with a daughter I adore who, in time, will likely reflect back on those same moments with the same level of raw awareness I have today as to the value and beauty we might otherwise overlook. I also went to "The Forum" with Frank today to meet with Rich, a resident and former counseling college dean about our plans for a "Mental Fitness" talk. It went quite well, better than I hoped, and I felt more at ease and confident about my role in this, too. Like, I might actually know what I'm doing. I do, I know I do, yet it's still a bit nerve rattling to talk to groups. I hear that's not unusual. I'll get over it, I'm already starting to. It was interesting to be asked by Rich about Linda's passing and its impact on me. I paused, reflected and answered that I was filled with gratitude for her as perhaps the most significant teacher in my life time, because it gave me a chance to really focus and funnel a lifetime inclination into what feels like a positive direction. As I mentioned at GNO tonight to a forum of good friends, I want to channel my interests into something that just helps populate awareness in a positive manner. I may write more about this elsewhere soon. Oh and I had a good chat tonight with a friend from Jikoji who's facing his mom's impending passing away, looking for insight and guidance as to preparations and priorities. I'm honor to have been approached and it feels like yet-another-path clearing.
