The tragedy is the way in which you passed. The loss spans the time we shared and her own time prior. The nature of her perspective was filled with fear and uncertainty that stemmed from childhood experiences she never fully reconciled with. And the beauty of the time we shared. The experiences we had. Even the difficult and more painful ones were opportunities for growth and a part of our respective paths diverging.
I wanted to reflect today on what was good. And there was much good. An alphabet of good. Reflecting back on the first date experience we shared, where we used a letter of the alphabet each to share 26 words that we felt described ourselves, I used the same 26 letters idea today to reflect on the key takeaways of our experience.
Awareness • Beauty • Compassion • Death • Energy • Family • Gratitude • Heartache • Infidelity • Judgment • Knowledge • Lovely • Meaning • Nature • Open • Perspective • Quit • Remorse • Sacred • Truth • Understanding • Validation • Wonder • Yearning
If I could go back in time, I know there are many things we both would've done differently. I love and appreciate that you were so pivotal in my experience, my journey in this life, my growth, my awareness, and my path. You were foundational. You are a part of me, our kids, and the life they will live. I will continue to reflect on the positive and the good in the things that were learning experiences,
Every day I write the list of reasons why I still believe they do exist
(A thousand beautiful things)
And even though it's hard to see the glass as full and not half-empty
(A thousand beautiful things)
So, light me up like the sun
To cool down with your rain
I never want to close my eyes again, never close my eyes
Never close my eyes
I thank you for the air to breathe, the heart to beat, the
Eyes to see again (a thousand beautiful things)
And all the things that's been and done the battles won the good and bad in everyone
(This is mine to remember)
So, here I go again, (here I go)
Singin' by your window, (singin')
Pickin' up the pieces of what's left
To find, (pickin' up, pickin' up)
(To find, to find, to find, to find, to find, to find, to find, to find, to find, )
The world was meant for you and me to figure out our destiny
(All the world is meant for you and me)
(Ooh, remember)
To live, to die, to breathe, to sleep, to try to make your life complete, (yeah, yeah)
So, light me up like the sun, (come on light me up just like a sun)
To cool down with your rain, (cool me down with your rain)
I never want to close my eyes again
Never close my eyes, (never gonna close my eyes)
Never close my eyes
That's all I have to say
- Annie Lennox