Mindset: Fragmented intention. The morning alarm was enough to get me out of bed, but only because it was out of reach, and the distance was not far enough to prevent my return. I slept well. For me that means limited waking periods. I am on the patio, getting some morning light while drinking water and just enjoying the 'space' here. I am enjoying it so much these days and found myself thinking, for a brief moment, about the oncoming winter months and what I'll do then, and I realized I was doing 'that thing' I want to stop doing - thinking about and 'dreading' some 'day when' on the horizon. That's just a waste of now and a projection of negativity. As cold as it was when Lauren and I would walk to school in the mornings from Matson, it was still wonderful and exhilarating. So, I'll anticipate that. Wonder and exhilaration.
Goals: I have a lot of things piling up to tackle. Garage door opener assembly and installation. Taxes and how to fund them. A 2hr C&C training. (Compassion and Choice). BIGS recording and submission (tonight). MetLife follow-up. Exitidy bullet points. I have made less progress than desired yet each day ends up feeling filled with mole-whacking, and my focus gets fragmented. I'm going to lock into getting BIGS recording done for certain, MetLife follow up calls, and perhaps the door opener will get started if not completed. Those seem the most time critical.
Anticipation: I'm on the fence about the last Jazz on the Plazz. It's David Benoit and I love his playing. I just don't feel the motivation this am to go early and try and secure some sweet spot but I will likely do so anyway and be glad I did. I guess that's another one of those philosophical considerations - loving the effort not the end result. Hmmm.
Wants: I want to re-engage on Exitidy to the point of engaging with mock and beta clients. It's almost September and I have a busy month ahead there too. I want want to clear a lot of those aforementioned 'moles' needing whacking which is accepting my limitations or letting go of a need to own and do it all. I want more time being awake and content.
