Mindset: Gratitude. I don't know if it was the iced tea at 4 pm, but I was tossing and turning until 2.30 am and beyond. Not good. Then, I had the most bizarre dream. I was on a small ship in the ocean and watched a former colleague from my Confoti days wade into shallow waters and get devoured by a group of sharks. Brutally. I woke from that, tried to make sense of it and heard the dog barking in the backyard, which is unusual. That led my thoughts to wonder where Jen was and to consider how suddenly anybody, including her, can be here one day and gone the next. Perhaps the dream was initiated by the newsletter I worked on yesterday and my research related to the sudden passing of the founder of the Zen Center. I don't know. Ultimately though, this is what happens. It's an idealized and romanticized hope that our lives and loved ones all gracefully peacefully pass away surrounded by family and friends, but it's not likely to be that poetic. The unpredictability of nature is stronger than our ability to control it. I value this perspective. It's turned fear and obsession into an enriching awareness (and an obsession ;-)).
Goals: Work on BIG, exitidy and the kids 20th birthday plans.
Anticipation: Lauren's solo adventure to the Nystagmus conference starts today. I'm excited for her.
Wants: The safety of my loved ones, to make a sustainable income doing something independent that feeds my soul, to spend each day being as present and grateful as possible, to foster connections to all experiences, to reduce and remove judgement.
Goals: Work on BIG, exitidy and the kids 20th birthday plans.
Anticipation: Lauren's solo adventure to the Nystagmus conference starts today. I'm excited for her.
Wants: The safety of my loved ones, to make a sustainable income doing something independent that feeds my soul, to spend each day being as present and grateful as possible, to foster connections to all experiences, to reduce and remove judgement.