I slept poorly. Between the impact of the wine, the food and likely the worst offender being, the dessert, I was bloated and uncomfortable. Plus, my and was racing about the job situation. I ended up writing out my thoughts about options and approaches. I went to the great bear with Tommy for coffee and told him about the likely change. He was supportive of the desire to stop chasing corporate growth and get into something more gratifying. I spent most of my day toying with ideas and options. But talking to Jennifer helped me recognize the intention and expectations I had taking this step, but even more so, how much I don't want to continue there. It's also been a challenge to see the ideas presented by Marlin as being covertly manipulative or sincerely considering of my longer term best interest in the light of future cuts on the horizon, and what need I fulfill. Which is admittedly none. Do I really want to return to the dysfunctional nature or ever take a lesser role and reduced salary only to have that be the starting point for my next gig and also have my employment agreement payout slashed too? No. It is time to get out. cut clean. Walk away. Story on disability. Make my next chapter a whole new place of joy, presence, excitement, fulfillment and gratification on all activities. We got a mid-day invitation to have dinner with Jon and Cheryl. We took the Last 2015 Malbec and it was wonderful. It's become a tradition to share our last Martin Ranch from the time we were introduced to their wines. The tri-tip was delicious as was the rest of the meal. I'm grateful to have the friends we have and the opportunities and options to spend time laughing and connecting. They had learned today that a friend died suddenly today, they still don't know the circumstances, but it reinforced the mindset of drinking the good wine now. Cheers to that.
