Highlights: A restless night. Limited sleep. Icblame the iced coffee around 5 pm yesterday. But I was mindful enough as I tossed and turned to not see it as a permanent state. I am proud of that. It validates that I am getting better about not letting monetary and temporary setbacks be interpreted as permanent. in either event, I still got up and out the door, and up the hill to the Zen center in time for 7 am "Zazen'. Hogan and Amanda were there as was "Luke" and a couple I had not met and who were departing that morning. I imagine the staff has quite a routine rotation of visitors and guests. I had a good conversation with Luke as he made breakfast. He talked about his 2- years of exposure to Zen practice & how it resonated for him after his mom passed from breast cancer a few years back. I gave Amanda my donation and matching form for care2. I arranged to stay next week, Sunday through Friday if not thru the following Sunday. I will use that time to do some very focused writing. Between now and then, though, I want to make the most of the time I have left, but I am faltering. I think the best idea is to pursue clients and a business around death and dying readiness. But that is not something I can spin up easily, and I have a good deal of up-front work ahead. GNO was fun. I started on the patio but had to move inside towards the end. It was getting too cold. I am hoping to have a good deep sleep tonight. I could use one. Lauren comes home tomorrow for the weekend, and we will have a family dinner on Saturday. It's still hard to believe all that has gone on this past couple of years and how we, as a family unit, have managed to work through so much. I am conscious and grateful that I can write that at all.
