As is customary, even having proactively cleared and installed barriers in the back rain gutters in advance of the first rains, the front went unattended, and I wound up in rain gear on a ladder removing debris so the water could flow. Sigh. It's all good. These are annoyances but also 'good problems in the grand scheme. I'm trying hard right now to reinforce this mindset as Jen faces a layoff, I see transitions in the workplace of my own making that may compromise my position, and I lucky fuckin' pee'd on the couch while we went grocery shopping tonight. I was furious because I had other plans for the evening beyond 3 or 4 passes at managing the cleanup, and the dog did this about a week ago on our bed, too. But I'm trying hard to see it like the gutters. An annoyance but the risks and price of home/dog ownership. I'll say this – we're done leaving them in the house. When we go out… they'll go "out" too. Rain or shine. As shown above, they have rain gear. Work was good again - hectic and impossible to do anything during the day. My meeting with Marlin about the roles, responsibilities and such leads me to believe that bringing on more help will result in my not having a role or responsibilities in the long run. And I'm trying to be ok with that. Because I feel like a change is needed, and this is not how I want to spend my days. My mental health is at risk at this stage. It's interesting to have been discussing 'retirement' with friends recently and reading articles about ones value being tied into one's job. I'm cognizant of that. I consider many of the people I work with to be family. If that routine stopped, it would be jarring. If Jen's circumstances change and mine follow, who knows what might come along to replace that? Something is exciting about that. Scarry as hell, too, yes. But it's on my mind as a probability at this point.