Highlights: Rainy AM ran throughout the day. I visited David and Julia before they left my mom's. It's such a complicated scenario, but what isn't? Like my relationship with my son being ideal and then a total disaster. As with his mom, I refuse to take full blame for an unhealthy dynamic, even less so when I enter the ring attempting to approach peacefully and repeatedly get hit in the face as I fail to succeed. It's not sustainable. I don't know what to do about it beyond the hard line and hard choices that'll result in hard divisions and resentments that might last at least my lifetime, if not his. What a tragedy this is, and for my part, it just reinforces that I suck as a parent and should never have gone down that path. Ugh. Jen returned tonight, and as much as I'm glad to have her back, I think it sucks that she has to live in this unhealthy home. It's toxic; I don't know how long she'll last. I won't long after, that's for sure. Nobody should have to live in a place of such contention and disrespect, and I'm having a hard time deciding if I want to bother doing so myself. How long does one stay on a sinking ship before abandoning and if they wait too long can they save themselves at all?