Highlights: I actually really successfully and restfully slept last night for the first time in a while. The gabapentin and shower combo worked. I'm trying again tonight to see if this is a sustainable path but with aggressive awareness of the pitfalls of dependency. I'm also starting to wonder more about the extent of my herniated disc issues and the oddness of the arm pains being potentially unrelated. Perhaps something like carpel tunnel is going on in tandem? Whatever the case, the good sleep gave me a fresh outlook. Scottie's shots and checkup appointment went well but it did reveal need for more dental surgery. "$surgery". Ugh. Back at work I had several frank, directed and even apologetic conversations with direct treports and colleagues about how to "reboot" the Dev/Prod role to be more successful. Lots of good feedback and ideas to continue discussing. I'm optimistic and engaged, and I needed that. An excellent counseling session with Denise too. She gave me some good feedback on the dynamic of narcissism and co-depedancy and encouraged my adoption of "Radical Acceptance," which I've mentioned before. Accept that what is, isn't my fault or something I can change now, but I can recognize and release the expectations for something else to spare myself the heartache and struggle. It's clear that it's a dynamic we both play a role in, but I'm not the instigator. And on a surprise note, we scored two extra free tickets to Yacht Rock Review, which allowed us to invite Jon, Cheryl Mark and Wendy, who all fell perfectly into the theme. Lots of rock nostalgia filled the evening at the firepit. It was a fun outing.