Monday was spent wrestling further with iPhone/Watch rest blues. My threshold is almost non-existent. I'm angry and pissed and frustrated at everything and everybody. I can't quite explain it, but if I dig down, I feel like a lot of it goes to feeling overwhelmed by the sense of being responsible for solving pretty much anything and everything. And being judged as responsible for not fixing things, too. Proactively, of course. Returning to work didn't help. I'm overloaded there too. And although I have been wrestling with the pros and cons I made the final decision Monday that we're moving into Panorama ASAP. I even gave notice to the Matson landlord. Tommy left for his Florida trip last night with Eric and crew. He doesn't know yet about the move happening quickly, but when he returns in one week we will be at least set up to start sleeping/living there while going back and forth to make further choices about what gets taken. It's gonna be a process. We're going to be downsizing a lot. That's harder than I expected. My counseling appointment with Denise went well, I felt, and it was good to talk about my own core issues and historical influences. Jen and I worked from Pano for the afternoon – I sold more weights and the squat rack too while Jen worked on painting our bedroom closets.
