Chocolate Macadamia-Nut Toffee
Highlight(s): I experienced a waking independent of any alarm, and rolled with it. I set about getting ready for brunch after feeding the dogs. Jen had set up having Jon and Cheryl over to catch up. She made a French Toast "casserole", I made a Ruben Strada. She also made bacon and sausage and I made a fresh pot of Old Soul. It was all delicious and it was nice to reconnect with them after a stretch of time focused on our other parallel endeavors. I met Tommy at Pano and we moved the "AIO" gym into the garage in advance of the rains coming Tuesday. I then dropped in on Linda at SRC. The responses remain sporadic and short and I can't really tease much out of her as far as responses go. At one point I asked how she was feeling and she said "upset". I replied that I understood. All I can do is try to find as much time as I can to be there, remind her that she is cared about, yet neither kids seem to really "get it" or have interest in investing their time into visiting while all I can do is dwell on the fact that, all differences aside, there will come a day when she'll be gone. And all differences aside, I'll regret that the only situation that seemed to lead to any kind of reconciliation and acceptance was a fatal disease. I went to Tommy's game tonight while Jen stayed at Matson. The game was fun, a good match of skills, and Tommy did well including some good distances traveling with the puck and a few good but not successful goal attempts. They won. When he got home though we fought about something as fucking simple as watching his fabrics and airing out his gear so it doesn't stick our tiny little storage space up. He nodded to me from the ice in the game and Eric commented that he thought that was an uncommon thing for a teen to do, which I took as a positive. Yet things took a negative turn and had to be argued at home. It's really wearing me down, and out, to have this on top of everything else on my plate. Jen too, I suspect, although she stays out of it mostly and would likely prefer I don't engage at all. Maybe I'll get there in another year of this.
Accomplishment(s): Continued "Big Magic" audiobook and continued really appreciating all the simple straight talk and wisdom therein.
Gratitude: That I have something really rewarding in my relationship with Jennifer.
Goal(s): PSMF tomorrow.
Anticipation: Walking with Lauren, and perhaps finishing Big Magic for the 1st round.
Habits: Mediation Gratitude Action Friendship Family Weight↑